Where Am I Going?

[Nicolette]

See everyone from Melbourne at the walk around Albert Park on Sunday at 9. I am a bit freaked out about going but I am still going so there is the challenge to all you ather Melbournians. See you there.

You were great company Ian and it was awesome to meet you. Don't forget Anthony is not far down the road if you want a visitor while in hospital.

Wishing you well.

 

[Ian Vp]

Thanks Nicolette, was great to meet you all. Met up with my other friends and had a great day. Back at the big brother house now and about to go to bed. Look forward to seeing you guys again.

Ian

 

[Ian Vp]

Hello world, I am getting out of here at the end of next week which I am very happy about. My anxiety levels have reduced and they are reducing my valium to 3x5 mg tablets a day as a trial over the weekend and if I can handle it and can use all my coping techniques I am allowed to go home. Happy days.

 

[Lionheart]

Hello world, I am getting out of here at the end of next week. Happy days.

Hey that is great news :cool: Ian Vp,
I am happy for you!!! :D

 

[revelry]

Ian,
Awesome, I'm so happy for you. You just have to remember those coping techniques, as I'm sure they will need to be utilized often to keep ya grounded :). I'm so very glad..
So overall..........when you look at your anxiety over going.....what do you think now? Did it help?

 

[Ian Vp]

Well in the end yes but only because of the amount of medication they had me on. Now that I have some better coping skills and they can start scaling back the Valium etc . Being in the hospital now is a greater source of anxiety than going home and being with the people close to me. Overall do I think I have improved, my anxiety yes I have a few new tricks up my sleeve but in terms of nightmares and flashbacks it has not changed. Some improvement is better than none at all. Will be very happy to get back to the valley.

 

[kimba]

I am very happy you will be getting out. As long as you are making positive progress, what more can you ask of yourself? Where you enjoy cooking, why not turn to that for a career? It isn't superhero status but everyone has to eat and enjoys good food. As for your kids uderstanding about your illness, that will come in time as they get older and can process it better themselves. I wish you continued improvement and you are an inspiration for me.

 

[Ian Vp]

Thanks Kimba, back on the ward for hopefully the last week. I have no idea what I am going to do in the future but I it has to be something positive I feel about. I see you are a new member, welcome to the forum. I have been getting a lot out of reading stuff on this site and I wish you the best in your travels. Ian

 

[revelry]

I think if you ask most people 'what they are going to do in the future?' You'll get a bunch of 'I don't know(s)', and for the other 5%, they may have a plan.....but you know what they say about plans.....

• If ya wanna hear God laughing....tell him your plans..

lol :)
But seriously,
Dont fret too much about your plans, just focus on getting well, coping an understanding, and I'de be willing to bet, the rest will fall into place. I have faith in you.

 

[Ian Vp]

Thanks Revelry,

First night back at home. Very glad to be back, amazing how you get used to the institution of a hospital after only a month and now everything seems quite hard to do. I know it is only going to be a brief phase and I will get back into the swing of things. Have cut down my valium so I can start driving around again and feeling a bit more with it which is good. I have to start my trips back down to melbourne next week but at least I am home most of the time. I need to get a bit more acive which is going to be my first goal. Lets see how I go, wont push it oo far, Talk to you soon. Ian

 

[OKRADLAK]

Welcome back! I know it is a scary time.Stay in touch with your T. And stay in a program.You can make it!

 

[Mercy]

Dear Ivan,
I just read through your posts. It is very courageous of you to check yourself in.

Are there day time groups on different subjects that you are OK with. Do you have a trauma specialist? If not maybe, they can find some one. Usually, hospitals prefer their own staff. The time I was in Hospital, I could talk on the phone with my T which gave me a way to express myself and to hear her reassurances.

I'm glad to hear that you can go to the gym! It is one of the best ways to flush out the stress from your body.

Thinking of you and how much stress a Policeman carries, often alone,
Mercy