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Why Did You Choose That Username And/Or That Avatar (Or No Avatar At All)?

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I chose "Brat" because I had 4 older sister, one 7 yrs older, twins 11 yrs older, and another 14 yrs older. I was an accident-nothing unique, but my sisters resented having a baby in the house at this time. Since mom was a depressed alcoholic, my sisters got stuck with me alot. They referred to me as brat, and later in life as precious (with contempt).

Throughout my life, I have repeatedly heard every bad deed I committed as a child. Of course without any compassion or any remembrance of their involvement. Since I was the baby, they also think that I got preferential treatment-which is where "precious" came from. If I was hungry, someone would say-who's gonna feed the brat. Who is taking the brat, etc.

Admittedly, I was the clown as a child that tried to keep the tension down. I still have a part of that within me but it has become more of a healthy defense in using humor to survive. Anyway, my siblings think recovery from co-dpencence is selfish so still use those terms to describe me.

When I developed full blown ptsd after a head injury, I became much more sensative and feel like a "brat" for trying to get my basic needs met.

Probably not a good choice-but what I felt when I signed on.
 
My username is Sivawoman, for similar reasons that Cat's name is Cat. Siva is my cat, and has been with me through everything. I chose the name Siva because I thought it sounded pretty. (sounds like sheeva...it is sometimes spelled Shiva). She is named after a god in the Hindu religion, but she doesn't share any characteristics with that god. I just looked through a text book about world masterpieces, and it stuck out. I found my other cat's name in the same book. He was Gilgamesh. (He went by Bubba)

So anyway, the name means a lot to me because it's about my cat who shows me unconditional love.
 
My current avatar is Pascal the Chameleon from the movie Tangled.

I have several pictures of him in different moods, and sometimes I will change my avatar to match his picture to my mood!
Right now he's a cute, wide eyed little guy with a half pleading grin, that kind of says (well, to me) pick me up, I'm cute and need a cuddle.

:p
 
My old avvi was an eye with a heart in it, this represented the love around me at the moment, starting a family etc.

My current avvi says strangers think I'm quiet, friends think I'm outgoing and best friends know I'm completely insane lol. Different friends and their level of 'closeness' is something I think about a lot atm, and my closest friends have seen me at my worst lol.
 
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