Why Does It Feel Like I Just Found Out How Bad This Is?

[LSNP]

I completely understand how you feel. When I found this site and began working through a PTSD workbook... one that acknowledges and addresses C-PTSD.... I got really depressed, too. In fact, I stopped posting and coming to the site for awhile because I didn't want to facethe fact that my entire life has been one trauma after another, each buried and ignored and demanding attention, at the same time. I still don't know how I feel about it. I just don't. The enormity of the issues.... all of them..... overcomes me and I sort of "shut down" and self-medicate and it sucks.

Found a therapist who is familiar with C-PTSD but haven't made the call yet. Don't want to go there yet, I guess. Don't want to face years of therapy and co-pays and appointments and telling my story (ies) again and again.

Exhausting.

So, yeah, I get it. You're not alone.

 

[Leda]

Therapy and EMDR is exhausting - but it will get better. It is so important to be kind to your self in this phase and to get enough rest after the sessions.

Good Luck with ypor therapy - from me who recently finished my own EMDR therapy;)