To the Supporters---
My heart goes out to you---honestly, I do not know what is worse...to have PTSD to or to love someone who has it. Before I had PTSD I would say it must be easier to love someone with it, but now that I have it, the way we change, the way we think, the thoughts that never stop, the inconsistencies, the different moods from second to second, making everyone walk on eggshells.......
I think now that supporters have it worse. Someone with PTSD is ---or can be----so chronically suicidal that we always have a way out in our back pocket. Supporters really don't. They have not lost the will to live and cannot know what that feels like.So in some ironic way because we are in consummate hell, it is easier because we can be so close to just ending it all. Does that make sense? We have come out on the other side.
Plus, our hell often outs itself. We rage or drink or smash things. Supporters' does not. It just sits there.
I would wager that supporters often get PTSD like syndrome. It is such hell living with us. That is why I isolate away from anyone other than once in a while seeing certain family and then people I have to see.
Also just want to make sure to say this is not the way everyone feels, so if someone does not feel this way, I am just saying how it is for me and for others I know whose PTSD have taken them to the edge.........
My heart goes out to you---honestly, I do not know what is worse...to have PTSD to or to love someone who has it. Before I had PTSD I would say it must be easier to love someone with it, but now that I have it, the way we change, the way we think, the thoughts that never stop, the inconsistencies, the different moods from second to second, making everyone walk on eggshells.......
I think now that supporters have it worse. Someone with PTSD is ---or can be----so chronically suicidal that we always have a way out in our back pocket. Supporters really don't. They have not lost the will to live and cannot know what that feels like.So in some ironic way because we are in consummate hell, it is easier because we can be so close to just ending it all. Does that make sense? We have come out on the other side.
Plus, our hell often outs itself. We rage or drink or smash things. Supporters' does not. It just sits there.
I would wager that supporters often get PTSD like syndrome. It is such hell living with us. That is why I isolate away from anyone other than once in a while seeing certain family and then people I have to see.
Also just want to make sure to say this is not the way everyone feels, so if someone does not feel this way, I am just saying how it is for me and for others I know whose PTSD have taken them to the edge.........