Windows And Signs Of Healing.

[storycat]

Does anyone else ever experience "windows" of time where they feel as good as they did before the PTSD?

 

[Graygoose]

Well, I was a bit too young to remember what is was like before PTSD, but I have noticed that I'll have periods of pure elation without a worry in the world. I'd imagine that's what life was like before shit happened.

 

[Tinyflame]

Moments. Sometimes hours.

2008 felt stronger and happy til a happening May, remember Easter I felt so much better and stronger than I had for so long. Happy, sort of hopeful, stronger.

 

[Meadowsweet]

I have times where I feel very positive, like its really not so bad and I'm nearly over everything. But I think this is what I call fairy tale thinking. Because it will last a few hours or as long as I'm distracted but the change back to a troubled mind or down feelings can be sudden, it happens in a moment without being triggered by anything.

I find when the weather changes for the better my mood becomes more hopeful too.

 

[Inspired 2 B Free]

I don't really remember a "before" period, but I do have increasing stretches of time between depressions. Also it's been a couple years since I had a rage outburst.

 

[Tinyflame]

The rage left me entirely.

 

[storycat]

Oh thank God to hear someone had the rage leave them entirely. I'm so sick of it. There's only so long I can shread paper, beat trees with rags, and punch pillows. Today I was having such a good day. Then I had one little trigger and *poof* all the positive went "bye, bye" and rage overwhelmed me. I used to get angry, but not like this. I just hope it wears itself out sometime.

 

[VDWngr1355]

Yes, actually I experienced this a couple of times recently. The first time was two months ago while at work. For a five hour period I had no anxiety, no worries at all, no intrusive thoughts. I felt so great. Colors were brighter, I felt lighter, everything as louder. Then it went away.

But it happened again a couple of times within the past two weeks for short periods of time. It is sad when it goes away but it is great when it happens because it gives me hope that everything will get better.

 

[Inspired 2 B Free]

Oh thank God to hear someone had the rage leave them entirely.

Storycat, My experience is that for a time, my rage got worse. But, as I worked through my memories etc it got better and better, to the point I have not had a rage incident in a couple of years.

My analogy is cleaning out the junk drawer. You know how you dump it out, sort, then put things back away? I think it's like that. Anger gets dumped out, then we have to sort the memories and feelings, then put it all back away again.

I hope you enjoy the times of calm and remember they will become more frequent and longer as you process. My best to you....

 

[Tinyflame]

Dear storycat, definitely it's possible, for the most part my rage has been gone for decades, even though I have a bad temper, but that is entirely different (I'm Irish/ Spanish/ Hungarian/ French etc, lol). If you acknowledge how the small things affect you, it won't explode as easier later (just my experience). It is like putting pieces together, as ITBFree said. ((((Hugs)))).

 

[Anna]

I sleep through the night sometimes which makes me feel very happy. It doesn't happen often but when it does it is very special, especially if there are no nightmares. :)