AlohaDreaming
Bronze Member
I've always had trouble keeping a job, till a few years ago when I found a really great company to work for. I was with them for nearly two years when love entered the picture. After ten years of being friends we began to date, and realized pretty quickly we were just ready to be together.
All positive things.
I've gone through a lot of jobs since moving up here. This most current job has caused my PTSD to skyrocket, and I've been avoiding going to work for the past three days. I used to think it was just me and my symptoms/issues/anxiety/wholeballofwax, but other people have talked about how negative our work environment is. People actually go out of their way to be rude to you, unhelpful and actually talk down to you. The customers are worse, they degrade you, flat out dismiss you, and make you feel small. My old job never had customers this bad.
I've started getting the tell tale pains in my shoulders and neck, the desire not to sleep, and then when I sleep I sleep so much that I wake up groggy. Sometimes I'll start a project and think, 'I'll go to bed soon', then only go to bed passed out, like tonight, where the anxiety of going to work, is really high.
I need the insurance, and the income, but I can't handle the stress. The stress is starting to make me not function, and I'm withdrawling. I've talked to my partner about it, but I don't feel like he's hearing me. I don't want to quit, because I need the job, but part of me feels like I'm crumbling if I stay.
I've missed a lot of time since I started, and I've started to not care if I miss more. I've slowly started to give up. It's effecting the way my house is, because I've gotten into the 'I'll do it later' mode but it never gets done.
I feel like I've failed again, because I need to work, but honestly I just want to go back to bed and wake up tomorrow knowing I never have to deal with the crappy management, the mean Team Leads and the shitty customers again. The pay is low, and even tho I do excel when I do my job, they act like there's so much more I 'should' be doing. It's a constant pressure.
The circular thoughts are just going on and on and on...and I feel totally demoralized. I'm just really like 'What the f*ck?!'
I want to quit. I really do. I want to just call in the morning and tell them I'm done. But then I'll feel guilty over the financial situation. I feel like I'm in a no win situation. I've been applying for new jobs for weeks now, but nothing seems to be happening.
I feel like a wimp wanting to give up.
All positive things.
I've gone through a lot of jobs since moving up here. This most current job has caused my PTSD to skyrocket, and I've been avoiding going to work for the past three days. I used to think it was just me and my symptoms/issues/anxiety/wholeballofwax, but other people have talked about how negative our work environment is. People actually go out of their way to be rude to you, unhelpful and actually talk down to you. The customers are worse, they degrade you, flat out dismiss you, and make you feel small. My old job never had customers this bad.
I've started getting the tell tale pains in my shoulders and neck, the desire not to sleep, and then when I sleep I sleep so much that I wake up groggy. Sometimes I'll start a project and think, 'I'll go to bed soon', then only go to bed passed out, like tonight, where the anxiety of going to work, is really high.
I need the insurance, and the income, but I can't handle the stress. The stress is starting to make me not function, and I'm withdrawling. I've talked to my partner about it, but I don't feel like he's hearing me. I don't want to quit, because I need the job, but part of me feels like I'm crumbling if I stay.
I've missed a lot of time since I started, and I've started to not care if I miss more. I've slowly started to give up. It's effecting the way my house is, because I've gotten into the 'I'll do it later' mode but it never gets done.
I feel like I've failed again, because I need to work, but honestly I just want to go back to bed and wake up tomorrow knowing I never have to deal with the crappy management, the mean Team Leads and the shitty customers again. The pay is low, and even tho I do excel when I do my job, they act like there's so much more I 'should' be doing. It's a constant pressure.
The circular thoughts are just going on and on and on...and I feel totally demoralized. I'm just really like 'What the f*ck?!'
I want to quit. I really do. I want to just call in the morning and tell them I'm done. But then I'll feel guilty over the financial situation. I feel like I'm in a no win situation. I've been applying for new jobs for weeks now, but nothing seems to be happening.
I feel like a wimp wanting to give up.
