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So it very regularly happens, that I will at some points feel the need to avoid messaging with people, or avoid replying to a thread of mine, or my diary. Not just here though, irl too.
When it happens I'm aware of a block or aware that I don't feel up to replying or whatnot - and it distresses me, sometimes a lot.
Now I know I get much less hooked into a downward spiral of feeling I ought to respond but still not feeling able to - than used to be the case.
But anyways I'd still like to try and understand it a bit better. Find a way of dealing with it or something.
Sometimes I'm avoiding quite a bit in other areas of my life too. So could see it as part of the general avoidance I'm doing but not always.
And sometimes the more personal the content, the more I avoid. This prolly bothers me the most.
And sometimes the more complicated or long messages leave me feeling I just can't get my brain around it all.
Any thoughts? Anyone relate?
Anyone found something that helps them deal with this?
Sometimes my inner critic tells me i must be antisocial or something.
Several people have tendered gentle questions along the lines of am I autistic?
And I don't think I am...
I suppose I've also recently realised I tend not to volunteer much of myself to others, or be vulnerable. And I think I can see that's an obstacle to getting more intimacy with others (non romantic).
When it happens I'm aware of a block or aware that I don't feel up to replying or whatnot - and it distresses me, sometimes a lot.
Now I know I get much less hooked into a downward spiral of feeling I ought to respond but still not feeling able to - than used to be the case.
But anyways I'd still like to try and understand it a bit better. Find a way of dealing with it or something.
Sometimes I'm avoiding quite a bit in other areas of my life too. So could see it as part of the general avoidance I'm doing but not always.
And sometimes the more personal the content, the more I avoid. This prolly bothers me the most.
And sometimes the more complicated or long messages leave me feeling I just can't get my brain around it all.
Any thoughts? Anyone relate?
Anyone found something that helps them deal with this?
Sometimes my inner critic tells me i must be antisocial or something.
Several people have tendered gentle questions along the lines of am I autistic?
And I don't think I am...
I suppose I've also recently realised I tend not to volunteer much of myself to others, or be vulnerable. And I think I can see that's an obstacle to getting more intimacy with others (non romantic).