Wow,this Shit Does Really Get Old

[Idas]

Here i am older than hell and still cant get rid of the effects of ptsd on my life.I checked into the ward at the local va a couple weeks ago (mental ward) and stayed for 2 weeks and found that i know more about ptsd than most dr.feel they do.I came out feeling worse the ptsd burning in my brain,sure i know there is no cure and life goes on and all that happy shit but you have to take a break from it sometime.

 

[Iwave]

Absolutely. Just this year, so 11 years of working my arse off at controlling this beast, I've been able to contemplate returning to some form of work once again. Mind you... it is baby steps with that one, and I still have to limit my overall exposure to people and keep stress under control, but I am doing it better than I ever have before. A couple of meltdowns here and there, but they last a few days and I get it controlled again.

So yes... now at a point where I get far more a break from the debilitating aspects of PTSD, experiencing a break from it is really quite pleasant. I think everyone needs it at times. I've had plenty of good times over the years, don't get me wrong, but PTSD would be back and kick my arse quick enough, whether just for a day or two, or week, or longer... breaks in-between were starting to feel annoying -- it was like, "this is what life is like to feel normal again" and then PTSD reality kicks back in, kicking my arse.

I hope you get a break though to help you along. It feels nice, and we all need it.

 

[Jenimo]

Here i am older than hell and still cant get rid of the effects of ptsd on my life.I checked into the ward at the local va a couple weeks ago (mental ward) and stayed for 2 weeks and found that i know more about ptsd than most dr.feel they do.I came out feeling worse the ptsd burning in my brain,sure i know there is no cure and life goes on and all that happy shit but you have to take a break from it sometime.

Fully understand. I am older than dirt as my daughter says. Cold war era you could say. I finally just had to make some major life changes. Moving to the country so remote I do not see anyone unless I go to the small town. This has helped me so much. I did go to a movie theater to see if I could do it. I stayed but was so on guard I will never again. I look for things to do with my family that is away from others. I just have zero patience for rude people now and it is very hard not to swat them down for having zero manors. No tv now in 7 years. I pick what I want to watch on u tube and netflix. We home school our kid so zero outside bs influences. A well rounded education as in skills, trades and academics. He to teach how to be the chameleon these days. Smart but able to blend when needed and the ability t lead when needed.
I have learned to educate the people who trigger me with polite this behavior bothers me and if continued I will remove myself from your life. Be this way but have enough respect to not be this way around me or see ya. I though would be lonley but was wrong. The more bs people I do not have time for the more non bs people I seem to meet. Stupid are breeding stupid and gaining on us. yet is seems I have better odds of controlling my life in the country. We even got a couple of small places with hook ups now and live in a very large RV. If I get the urge to move we do not even have to pack. Just go to the other place for a while. No body knows when we are where. The lots were like 5000 each on lakes. we paid on them for a while but now have two semi hidden places on lakes where most are never home except on holidays. vacation spots for others. it is nice to not know anyone. No phone calls, No people bothering us. Nobody wanting help fixing crap. I am learning to fish. Ok nap on an old barge. fishing for zzzzss I guess. But these changes have saved me from my own mind. I am turned on when need to be but most of the time now I can turn it off or atleast way down and relax some. everything that stresses you must go. You are the king of your world all others beside wife and kids are visiters in it from time to time.