Ellabella44
Diamond Member
My sister in law has been buffering for me since I went no contact with my parents. For my birthday and now my anniversary they have sent cards.
Which sets off all the bomb threats off in my head. Meltdown yesterday a day after receiving the card... I made it a day.. yippee...
Today I visited my sister in law and we wrote up a note to them telling them in my own writing to please honor my request for space, i will contact them if and when i am ready to. And not to reply to even the note in any way.
She will be mailing it. The thing is I was not even able to write anything like those two short sentences till now.
I feel better that despite yesterday's meltdown I wrote to defend myself , and ask for space. I can't heal when a simple card from them makes my body remember all the injuries, and comments laced with disgust etc as if it all was happening at once.
Today I stood up for my right to have space. And I can't be punished for asking for something I need. I will be safe. And I don't know how to feel about that fact.
Which sets off all the bomb threats off in my head. Meltdown yesterday a day after receiving the card... I made it a day.. yippee...
Today I visited my sister in law and we wrote up a note to them telling them in my own writing to please honor my request for space, i will contact them if and when i am ready to. And not to reply to even the note in any way.
She will be mailing it. The thing is I was not even able to write anything like those two short sentences till now.
I feel better that despite yesterday's meltdown I wrote to defend myself , and ask for space. I can't heal when a simple card from them makes my body remember all the injuries, and comments laced with disgust etc as if it all was happening at once.
Today I stood up for my right to have space. And I can't be punished for asking for something I need. I will be safe. And I don't know how to feel about that fact.
