You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Friday]

When you chat up the police before putting a deposit down on an apartment to get their feel for the neighborhood, and that complex in particular.

 

[Hydrotroop91]

When you forget everything someone said in less than two seconds.

When you have to keep asking someone you just met their name over and over over and over again.

When someone tells you something and you're too embarrassed to keep asking so you just say okay or nod.

When you love and trust your cat more than you do your own kind.

 

[Lucycat]

When your husband , who understands today is a bad day asks if you would like to go out to dinner or have a Chinese takeaway. And all I could reply is -' I can't think.' So he makes the decision. He chooses my favourite Chinese. He phones and orders it and drives to collect it. All without complaint- while I sit sobbing for no reason.

 

[Special Eddie]

When your friend writes on her FaceBook page how everything in ones life is ones choice. I said that if I had chosen my parents, I would have done a better job. and she says and I quote her:
no, it is NOT your parents....good case in point, Dr. Ben Carson, raised by a single mom and her father absent his entire life...started out bad and turned around and is now a world renowed neurosurgeon....I do not care for his politics, he is too left to be a righty but I respect him just the same....and he grew up with no father in his home.

This is confidential, of course. So is it just me or do people think that Complex PTSD is just a walk in the park well S*****

 

[zaniara]

When you're too depressed to talk, to eat or even move. (And all you do is pray to God to eradicate you. Because you're too tired to live. But killing yourself is not okay. ) But being honest about how bad it really is is out of the question, since being admitted into the non-working psychward would mean to be exposed to at least three major triggers(among staff that doesn't understand PTSD at all!!)- and also the addict part of you would probably win the battle and lead you back to active addiction when the stupid staff for sure would pump you full of drugs- thinking legal drugs is a different thing.. :banghead: (since drugs is the only thing they have to offer)

So it's another day locking your self up in the bathroom.. (hey, I can do the locking up without help)

 

[Changing4Best]

When a friend comes to visit and you are still in your nightgown. She asks if she woke you and you reply that it is just one of those staying in the house days, but to please come in. She comes in and proceeds to talk your ear off, much of what she is saying is unintelligible to you and you listen attentively anyway, because to listen is not to feel your own pain.

 

[Recovery4Me]

because to listen is not to feel your own pain.

You know you have PTSD when the quote above rings true. Very deep. Another beautiful reason to offer empathy and active listening!

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

When you have your first visit with your new doctor and you end up with tears in your eyes when you're talking to the nurse. And then when you're talking to the doctor you end up with tears in your eyes again.

When you have to tell your new doctor and the nurse that you're uncomfortable being touched for an examination.

When you leave the doctor's office relieved that your new doctor and nurse were patient compassionate understanding and didn't insist on doing a physical examination.

 

[Changing4Best]

I should have done that kind of informing to the skin doctor who is a man. I gritted my teeth and bore the pain instead. @BlackbirdSinging.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I should have done that kind of informing

I got the results I wanted by speaking up but I was also embarrassed and felt ashamed. I'm glad I did it but it was hard.

 

[Changing4Best]

... when you read something on these Forums about forgiveness and some folks' answers upset you, but many you agree with. And the ones you disagree with give you a gut feeling of you don't know what, but it is not a good gut feeling. Yet you do respect all opinions, because after all, everyone has to live their lives in the way they see and feel best. However, you do believe in the power of forgiveness, that it helps one to heal.

 

[Anrish]

When everyone else is getting excited about a meeting with all guys from school after ten years and you just and there and get the chills. I can't understand other's people happiness when they talk about their time in school. I don't remember much (because a lot is locked inside myself and I don't want to open that part of myself) and what I remember was cruel and hopeless. It was a cage where I had to go and nothing else. It's hard to have a conversation with others concerning this topic because I have to stand out or remain silend while getting a headache.