You know you have ptsd when...
You have weird stare downs with dogs and think, if that thing bites me I'm going to kick it's face.
You burn another steak cooking it exactly the same way as you did last week, but somehow last week you did it right.
You hear children running around outside making noise and cringe like your cat. You and cat go and hide in a dark corner until they're gone, hissing.
You hear neighbors have another party and will keep calling the police until that shit stops.
You stare blankly at the phone when it's your doctor/therapist returning your call, but in the gap between when you called them and they called you back, you decide you no longer care. But then two days later, really need to talk to your doctor/therapist and the cycle repeats. Suddenly it's been two weeks and ..??..>?!.. :/
You watch tv shows and movies you've seen before but don't remember, and so it's like there's always something new on.
You miss key words in sentences that make them make more sense, but they make perfect sense to you. Other people are stupid.
When you decide the meat is done because you're hungry, not because it's fully cooked. And then spend the next few days wondering why you've been throwing up and if cancer finally has gotten ahold of you.
When you go to visit a friend and cry so much you wish you were home. Where's my stuffed monkey.
When, for fear of someone breaking in to your house and reading all your secret notes-to-self, you use codes for them that later you can't break. What does EF-2g-7749 mean? Seriously, tell me if you know.
Also, when you put things in "safe" spots and then realize the safe spots are safe enough that you can't ever find them again.
When you take a xanax for the first time in two years and think, "aaahhhh this is what an hour without pain feels like. Can I have another one?"
When you suddenly notice all the sounds around you that have apparently been going on this whole time but somehow you didn't notice. "Wait, there's a freeway next to your house? When did that happen? Huh."
When the last three cups you were drinking from are now missing.
Oh yeah, and the one time I got out of my car while it was still in drive, thinking I had put it in park, and it's rolling down the street and I had to go catch it. Fortunately, neither of us were going very fast.
You have weird stare downs with dogs and think, if that thing bites me I'm going to kick it's face.
You burn another steak cooking it exactly the same way as you did last week, but somehow last week you did it right.
You hear children running around outside making noise and cringe like your cat. You and cat go and hide in a dark corner until they're gone, hissing.
You hear neighbors have another party and will keep calling the police until that shit stops.
You stare blankly at the phone when it's your doctor/therapist returning your call, but in the gap between when you called them and they called you back, you decide you no longer care. But then two days later, really need to talk to your doctor/therapist and the cycle repeats. Suddenly it's been two weeks and ..??..>?!.. :/
You watch tv shows and movies you've seen before but don't remember, and so it's like there's always something new on.
You miss key words in sentences that make them make more sense, but they make perfect sense to you. Other people are stupid.
When you decide the meat is done because you're hungry, not because it's fully cooked. And then spend the next few days wondering why you've been throwing up and if cancer finally has gotten ahold of you.
When you go to visit a friend and cry so much you wish you were home. Where's my stuffed monkey.
When, for fear of someone breaking in to your house and reading all your secret notes-to-self, you use codes for them that later you can't break. What does EF-2g-7749 mean? Seriously, tell me if you know.
Also, when you put things in "safe" spots and then realize the safe spots are safe enough that you can't ever find them again.
When you take a xanax for the first time in two years and think, "aaahhhh this is what an hour without pain feels like. Can I have another one?"
When you suddenly notice all the sounds around you that have apparently been going on this whole time but somehow you didn't notice. "Wait, there's a freeway next to your house? When did that happen? Huh."
When the last three cups you were drinking from are now missing.
Oh yeah, and the one time I got out of my car while it was still in drive, thinking I had put it in park, and it's rolling down the street and I had to go catch it. Fortunately, neither of us were going very fast.
