You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Jen93]

...when you watch a horror film and laugh at how lame it is because real life is far worse

Oh my gosh! YES! and then you laugh and make jokes because in real life, the scariest things have no scary music to warn you, they come out of the blue.

You know you have PTSD when you can't separate your trauma people with the people with you now, so you end up saying stuff to them like (a) "Don't c*t yourself"/"Are you okay? I saw scratches on your arm." and (b) "Don't hit me." and they don't even blink anymore when you say such stuff but (in the case of a) either roll up their sleeves and show you their arms, or they write a note to you, or (in the case of b) they tell everybody that it's time for a break so that you can take a few moments with some friends to talk it out, get another tea to ground yourself AGAIN and have them convince you that your teacher's not going to hurt you.

You know you have PTSD when you have a panic attack/flashback in class and your friend calmly tells you that you're in school and having a flashback. They don't even get shocked anymore. :confused: By anything I do or say.

You know you have PTSD when you find yourself thinking about your friends, and start wondering to yourself how can they even put up with you for another day- and you're all the more grateful that they haven't left you, because they totally could have, so you treasure your good times even more, even if they are few and far between.

You know you have PTSD when you start thinking of ways to try to make days good; hide your anxiety and weirdness or whatever, so you don't feel bad about your friends and your paranoia making you think you're using them and as if it isn't give-and-take at all but just take-take-take for you, and give-give-give for them. It makes me feel selfish. :cry: I don't deserve them.

 

[Red Feather]

...when your lawyer looks at you as if she is trying to be nice, and asks if you can concentrate well enough to read the very important document she just handed to you.

 

[Springer80]

When your so thrilled about feeling relaxed for the first time in ages that you can't sleep! So you get up and stick it on the forum......:confused:

 

[Springer80]

When having a nice reason that your not sleeping makes you feel happy! :D:rolleyes:

 

[Charmedone]

When your best friend records you disassociating and afterwards you laugh together about it for hours because of the crazy things you said.

You know you have PTSD when you go to hospital, suddenly go back to being a child and cry for mummy lol or complain of having a wobbly tooth lol sooo embarrassing.

 

[HëllaBubz]

When you are finally exhausted enough to fall asleep as soon as you get into bed, and your last cognitive thought is "finally, I am tired enough to sleep."

Which is then followed by the most anger/frustration/angst/fury/pain filled and inducing nightmares that your brain can possibly induce.......and you wake up in the morning ready to murder someone with your bare hand and think "stupid bubzie, stupid. why did you ever think you could ever sleep, its not allowed!"

and kick yourself for the next few hours whilst snarling under your breath at the innocent and undeserving mug that refuses to obligingly fill itself with water.


:devilish::mad::ninja::inpain::mask::banghead::poop::blackeye:

man, no one better f*ck with me this morning, I'm ready to shred things.
Now I know where the legend of super transforming vampires came from.......they were merely people with PTSD who had nightmares, and someone f*cked them off!!!

 

[Shellbell]

when you have so many alarms in your phone to remind you about everything, that it feels like it's going off every 10 minutes. And I need it but I hate the sound of the alarm (noise issues). :rolleyes: :eek: :headphone:

 

[Jen93]

You know you have PTSD when you realize that the municipal buses trigger you, and you have to take two to get to your bus stop to university. So instead of going on the municipal bus, you walk thirty minutes on the busiest street during morning rush hour to get to the bus stop for school. (Man... I thought so many times crossing the street that I was going to get run over. (had to cross the street three times on the intersection which has a ramp going to the highway.)

Can we say avoidance? :(

You know you have PTSD when you keep having to change your route to get to school (or work) to avoid triggers-and when you realize all routes trigger you, you have to choose between the lesser of two evils and put up with being triggered at the beginning of your school (or work) day.

 

[JustBe]

...when riding the elevator is a major victory.

 

[Ruckster]

You put the bread in the closet and your shoes in the fridge

 

[Springer80]

When you proof read your post and are sure it's fine, then hit the button and notice x number of errors.

 

[Privateer]

When the sound of a Seaking's engines overhead in the darkness makes the whole world fade away.