You Know You Have PTSD When...

[rainy_daze]

...when you are determined to improve your quality of life, and carry on living, regardless of the past [I think this is something you think when you are not in the depths of PTSD, it happens when you are fighting to face what happened to you or someone close to you].

 

[Friday]

When you're first thought on hearing something f*cked up isn't one of sympathy but; "Lets go kill them all."

Dead serious.

Wrong world, wrong world, back your shit down, girl.

 

[Ronin]

... when that both cheers you up and makes you question how far you've moved and you decide to keep moving because that theoretical bs can totally wait after shit is done.

Oops. Different lifetime.

 

[Anrish]

When you have an invitation for a birthday party but you avoid it with an extra-shift...because you don't want to be a burden for the people at the party. I like them all a lot, but I'm not in a good shape right now...I don't want to ruin the good mood.

 

[Let It Be]

...when your new neighbors are in the process of putting up a wooden fence. There is already a chain-link fence there but I guess they have decided for my privacy for themselves and their dog.

For me, as I watch the guys put up the fence, I am having to talk to myself about the advantages and not to take their action personallly.

When I go out into the backyard in the future, we will no longer be talking or seeing one another as we will not be able to see one another.

 

[Ronin]

... When you semi-argue with your partner to stop losing time with you in shock because there's whole squad he could be helping at the moment and you so got it because you're aware you're not hurt worse.
... And when he doesn't even bother to argue with your flashback and indignation altogether and instead gets to be a bigger dog your bitchy weak-protesting self needs to shut up.

 

[holdenmonty]

when you always have a plan to the closest exit no matter where you are.

 

[Anrish]

When you are in panic when something does not go according to plan and you think that possible mistakes might only be your fault.

 

[Karen12]

You just don't feel like you deserve to be inside a group - because there will for sure be some problem again.

Boy do I know that one.

 

[myheart]

When you KNOW something is SO WRONG inside and you dream of pulling huge snakes out of your throat and long worms out of your *down there*. You KNOW you have to get them OUT, so even though your reaction is to panic, you stay calm and still keep pulliung them out so that not ONE bit of that stuff will stay within you.

 

[Ronin]

... When snakes are your memory of places you were home at and the horrifying bits were everything else but the snakes.
.... When that memory lane still inspires pride along with mental commentary of 'didn't do me, bitches'.
.... When you're almost ashamed of posting your happy memory because it's things like that.

 

[Recovery4Me]

When someone is rattling the front door knob, trying to pry the locks, pounding to see how strong the door is where the window sits...and you just keep posting on the PTSD site thinking, "Hope they like big dogs and armed crazed women." :devilish:

Didn't even think twice until I told the Mr. & he said, "Why didn't you call the cops?" Hmmm, like after our flashbacks, that is scary?:roflmao: