You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Ronin]

Eventually when your common reaction to spotted flashbacks is 'No I'm quite fine, I just need to get out of here'. The out part doesn't get said, you're already on the move.

 

[Ronin]

You make yourself busy scheduling this move or that move because it's easier than despair.

When you schedule the short daily times for survivor's guilt because it's what you were told to do to not have it kick your ass so bad (but the irony of making time for that stuff, instead of letting it pop up whenever it feels like it!)

When none of what you say to others feels like applying to yourself, and weren't it for people you care for, you'd move feelings aside altogether because they slow you the hell down (and you feel 'keeping it together' is the state without them, as otherwise you're just an emotional wuss combined with a shipwreck).

When 'threads I won't make' inspire more ideas than the ones you do. (But oh vey. Categorizing emotional everything is easier with existing forum categories. ADHD trains of thought finally have some tracks that don't lead to nowhere and anger slash despairville.)

 

[Anrish]

You get nervous in a hotel when you have to run to the toilet so ofte and are more afraid of what the other guests might think...and you can't calm down at all because that increases your nervousness.

When you cannot stop pushing yourself over the edge because you don't want to feel and think.

 

[Ronin]

@Anrish, that'd be extremely rude if they voiced their thoughts aside of general short question if you're alright, honestly. Not saying don't worry about it, anxiety doesn't work that way, but saying having manners on their side can have your back. :)

 

[Deleted member 19804]

When you have been so afraid you've lost touch with reality

 

[Anrish]

@Snowwhite : I'm with you in this one, my dear Snowwhite. :hug: Reality is a b****.

When you work too much, sleep not enough and still cannot calm down during a weekend to get some rest. :banghead:

 

[hodge]

When you can't sleep and at the same time dread sleep because it's going to bring nightmares.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

When even as a scientist, when you hear the word dissociation, you think of the physchological term before chemical

 

[jaccat]

When something most people don't even notice can freak you out, but a guy full on shouting in your face doesn't bother you at all.

 

[katybug]

When your parents are used to you crawling into their bed in the middle of the night, even though you're almost an adult.
When it's perfectly normal to not feel a body part.

 

[jaccat]

When you find yourself arguing with the television after a fictional therapist says something to a client you know they wouldn't say in real life (unless they were a very bad therapist).

 

[Ronin]

When you still try to stick to facts and details but the moment it turns to emotional facts and details, you're just f*cked.

(Reminiscing to a past conversation & another current conversation. I was just fine talking things I didn't speak of in ages as that friend already had a goddamn idea, parts of similar history, and told me equally deep things she didn't share before. It was detached enough. It wasn't worrying about people that are never going back. Note to self: apparently after processing dead children, we're at processing missing children. f*ck my life. f*ck a few months to come as well, when that work is postponed & I can't just take care of people I've been doing past a few months. Hello darkness, my old friend.)