Please Tell Me If I Belong Here

[Forgetful]

Before I start - sorry if this is scattered, my brain refuses to cooperate ex. It took me 10 minutes to remember how to start a new thread.

I've had many traumas in my life though none were really life threatening or even particularly bad. 7 years ago I was DX with PTSD and last year spent several months doing EMDR. Now though, I am mostly symptom free and have had quite a few months of feeling well ( too "up" according to Pdoc ). She's now watching for signs of BP.

The only symptoms I still have are nightmares which wake me up in the middle of a flashback in the form of body memories. The thing is these nightmares aren't about the traumas.
The only other symptoms are I feel the need for isolation and sense overload.

Over the years I have learned to basically deal with these. So, I quests my question is do I STILL belong here?

I know I've asked this before and I'm sorry. Its just I have never fit in anywhere and have only ever had 1 friend ( who is expected to pass away within a week or so ).

Sorry.

 

[qwyoey]

If you are still posting here and wondering if you belong, then it sounds like you need to belong, if not here, then somewhere. You have a lot on your plate right now and this is a good place for support.

 

[qwyoey]

Have you spoken with your therapist about your difficulty making friends and your sense of belonging? A lot of people feel like you do. It might be something important to work on in the future. Everyone needs support

 

[Forgetful]

Have you spoken with your therapist

No, I never thought to bring that up. I will next week. Thank you for the suggestion.

 

[Deleted member 34328]

Yes, I agree with @qwyoey if you're still posting, then there is a measure of safety here for you. We care. We hear you, even if we can't all identify specifically with what you're experiencing.

Just on the side, my therapist always asks me about any nightmares I might be having. He tells me that even if it isn't a duplicate of the trauma itself, the topic can still be related and therefore relevant. On the same theme of what we're working on.

 

[digger]

Do you still feel you any benefit from posting or reading here? If yes, then, yes, you still belong here. If no, then maybe you have currently outgrown the need for the site. I think the judgement on this needs to be yours, not that of anyone here.

 

[Deleted member 541]

There is another possibility... You may not need the support anymore, but possibly you could GIVE much needed support to others that do need it. Honestly, I too don't have many symptoms anymore and pretty much feel ok other than daily anxiety. I came back after a few yrs to give support if I can and just to do a venting diary for daily shit that bugs me...

I'm glad that you are doing good. It's awesome to feel good....

 

[EveHarrington]

Sound to me like you very much belong here. I think as long as you want to be a part of the community, then you should stay. One day you may decide to move on------but I think it should be a conscious decision, not made because you feel like you don't belong. :hug:

 

[Elef]

I'm sorry that your friend is dying. This must be a really difficult time for you.