dissociative fugue- please tell me Im not alone

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still having these despite the recent increase of the seroquel. had two last sunday, havent had more than one in a 24 hr period since that awful episode in August.
not sure what the target dose is supposed to be- dr won't tell me. makes me worried he's using "therapeutic privilege" to keep info from me, just to make sure I actually follow the treatment he's pushing. which makes me feel like Im being paranoid, which feeds into the existing anxiety and it goes round and round and get faster and uglier. some days I just dont know what to do anymore.
flashbacks hitting hard. and startle response. why can't I stop this?????

 

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chucking everything into the "f"it bucket

I'm fine.
(ImnotImscremainginsideandImsickofnothingbeingdonetostoptoongoingharassmentofmemyfamilymyworkanyoneIassociatewithandsickofhavingtochangeeverythingMEbcnoonewillstopHIMadnsickofOurInternalReviewShowedNoWrongDoingAndWereAllSoConcernedAboutYourHealthliesandliterallyphysicallysickonthisdamndrugandImnottakingitanymorethrewthemalloutcancelleddrapptsandjuststayinginmycavewhereImsaferfromeveryoneandeverythingWalmartdeliversleaveitontheporch)