Quitting

[Casey_03]

Uggghhh I have to give my two weeks' notice to my job and it's making me panic! i've written up the email I need to send and can't bring myself to send it to my boss .... i feel ridiculously guilty for quitting. I don't know why, they treated me like crap with my pregnancy. But they all kept asking if I really intended to stay in the country long term (presumably because the company had to pay money to get me a work permit), and I always said, "Yes, of course, i'll be here for the next few years."

And yet here I am .... leaving .... shortly after giving birth, just as they feared, and exactly what I told them wouldn't happen.


The guilt. The guilt. I'm close to having a panic attack over this damned email.

 

[VioletButterfly]

I can relate. You know, though, if there was an economic need, they wouldn't think 2 seconds before cutting your job. That's the way business works. I don't know why we feel the need to watch out for them when they don't look out for us, for the most part if at all. I hope that makes sense. I'm in a situation where I'm a temp and I feel guilty because I know there is no way I'm going to go perm with this organization, but need the money right now, so well... I have learned that I have to take care of myself. In the big picture, they haven't said a word to me about going perm, or about benefits and salary, and they have this weird contract they want me to sign - no discussion about that either.

It's difficult to get my arms around putting my needs first, but I think it helps to look at the bigger picture from a bit of a distance and maybe from another's perspective. My friend helped me reframe my thinking yesterday on this issue and I'm going in tomorrow with a mindset of "I need a paycheck, EOD (end of discussion)." No guilt feeling allowed. This a new and difficult concept to get my arms around, but I'm trying. Yet, the guilt keeps tapping me on the shoulder, so I understand where you're coming from.

Hope you can let go of the guilt and focus your energy on something you want to grow - your new life with your child in America. You are still coming here, correct? Take care. VB

 

[Casey_03]

Thanks @VioletButterfly Glad I'm not the only one who feels guilty over stuff like this. And I shouldn't. After all, they were prepared to deny me a work permit because I was pregnant, and they later cut my pay for being pregnant. i guess i feel bad cause I found out later that the boss gave me a bonus out of his own pocket. But, oh well. Life goes on, for them and for me.