Stupid Book

[Lex113]

Had a stressful day with the kids, both under the age of three.
A girl I went to highschool with three year old just died. Found that out on the way home, that made me ball like a baby. And feel like a horrible mom.
Idk I guess I wanted to do something good, my mom asked me to get her a crochet magazine we had a busy day but at 8 I drug two kids into the book store, finally found the stupid magazine left my money in the car, had to go back out to get it.
Went home. Handed mom the bag, went back to car to get infant. Heard mom screaming about how im a stupid fuxkibg piece of Shit.
Three hour anxiety attack and now my side won't stop hurting. Very sharp pains so no sleep tonight.
I hate everything

 

[Lola Nocheprieta]

Man, I'm sorry, @Lex113, some days are just shitty like that. And having 2 kids under age 3 is Tough with a capital T! Try to cut yourself some slack, you're human (that's what I keep telling myself, so I know, easier said than done!) Some days, it's okay to be the "good enough" mom/dad/parent/caregiver, damn it! Can you do one little thing nice for yourself after the kiddos are asleep? I'm about to take my own advice ... Make a cup of tea, throw a splash of something alcoholic in it (mind you, a splash for me is a huge splurge, like, 1 oz!), and crawl into bed.

Hang in there, Lex, and take good care of yourself. Here's a hug if you accept them :hug:

 

[EveHarrington]

Can you move out?

 

[GrayOwl]

Hi Lex.
I read both your posts.
You have a lot of negatives surrounding you at the moment.
Hope you can find support and positives to help you with your negative s/o and mother.
Tough spot. Keep us informed so we can support you.
Stay positive. You deserve good things.