Sufferer Trying To Get Past The Worst

[smyh]

I had an official diagnosis in January while placed in a mental health hospital after having uncontrollable suicidal thoughts. I have always suffered from depression, but got ptsd after being raped in my dorm room by a friend in 2008. This past December I saw a man who looked very much like him and triggered me to go down hill. After getting out of the hospital I was stalked, sexually assaulted, and robbed by another friend who was supposed to be a support system. Now I am suffering daily.

 

[EveHarrington]

Hi and welcome to the forum. :)

I'm so sorry you're stuffing so much. I think you've come to a great place to get support. :hug:

 

[smyh]

My hope is to start airing out my dirty laundry. I keep things bottled in too much and my husband doesn't quite understand all this

 

[Ronin]

Hi, welcome.

Very sorry you haven't received support, the contrary, hopefully life treats you kinder from now on.

 

[smyh]

There is a lot I have to address to take care of myself. I am scared to move forward

 

[Ronin]

I am scared to move forward

You have a high chance it will be better than now, though?
Or different, and giving you more options to make it better, because you'll know more how to heal, which is useful even if life's still the same mess?

 

[smyh]

It's one of those things that I am scared of failing. I don't think I could handle any more

 

[Ronin]

@smyh, you can't 'fail' your own recovery.

You can only take the longer or shorter path to it. ;)

 

[seedling]

Welcome to the forum!
You have already made a successful introduction:)
There will be ups and downs, times that feel unpleasant or pleasant, it's all part of the same journey.

Try not to get caught up in the fear of what MIGHT happen. Focus on what you are doing right now. Things change so much and so rapidly sometimes.

Sorry about the recent assault. There is great info and great support here. One more coping method you didn't have before.

 

[intothelight]

@smyh Welcome to the forum! :) I hope you find the information and support beneficial to your healing.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Welcome to the forums :hug: I hope this place helps you. It's very useful because of the bulk amount of people who feel similar and understand. There is a lot of advice and support to be found here :) I hope that this amazing community helps you as much as it helped me, reading all the similar stories, and learning a lot along the way. Hugs if you accept :hug: