I asked the ER to put mt on 100 mg three times a day, I already have the mindset I'm getting off of this.
I didnt know they come in 100 mg. I thought 300mg caplutes were the lowest. But there you go, you can do this, The Little Engine That Could, i think i can i think i can...i can...i can etc etc etc. which also for me then changes to i will, i will, i am, i am. Tier down but dont start to count until you stop taking them 100%, dont fill them if the Dr prescribes them...rip up the perscription, then count every day and say "ive done this for a day, i can do another...i have done this for 2 i can do another"...eventually that quickly gets to weeks, months, and on. Each day off of them is a victory and should be celebrated as such. Cut all contacts, you are getting clean so there is no need for addict friends. Delete all numbers from your phone, rip up all numbers and addresses, delete all bookmarks of all sites and do not go to them from memory. You dont need them anymore.
It is very hard to get clean by yourself but it is doable. You need to be strong willed, you need to be your cheerleader and let yourself express how you feel, be gentle with yourself but at the same time be strong willed. The addict mind never goes away. I would do a line of coke if it was in front of me and ive been 11 yrs clean off that. It never goes away. You must fight that. You are in a good position, you are completely fed up with it, if thats fully honest, and thats where you need to be even before rehab. You need to be saying "i wont put up with this for another second of another day"! Fed up with it is the only way I could do it so keep being completely fed up!
This is just how I did it each time and I hope it helps. You can do this! I believe in you!
