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After almost 2 and 1/2 years of trial and error, I finally have the combination of medication that works for me. Again this combination is only for me. Everyone has their own individual issues and chemistry. I took the first medication in March of 2014. I was lead to this medication in a strange way. One of the DNA matches of mine was prescribed this medication, Lithium. At that time, we shared the same GP. So When the DNA match told me about it, I said, "That sounds interesting." A few days later, our GP prescribed Lithium for me also. I will never forget taking it for the first time. I swallowed the pill and sat down in the easy chair. After about 20 minutes, all I could think was that people really don't live like this, do they? I was clear headed and my anxiety level was down considerably. You see, without medication, my anxiety is so high it is as if I am plugged into a 220 volt socket.
I was taking the generic for Xanax in a small dose. It did the trick. It wasn't perfect, but it was ok. The state is cracking down on Doctors prescribing all benzos due to their addictive qualities. I am going to guess, but I think it was like 6 months ago, my Doc prescribed Buspirone for me. I like it much better than the xanax because it is much smoother. The Benzos work wonderfully when you first take the dosage, but they wear off quickly. The Buspirone builds up in your system and stays at a nice, even level. My anxiety has been under control now for a while and I feel very good.
When the anxiety was under control, I was now able to really feel my MDD. When the anxiety was high, I didn't notice the depression as much, but as soon as the anxiety was under control, the depression was horrible. Doc and I tried Prozac, but to no avail. I needed something much stronger. I talked to Doc about Amitriptyline. We agreed to try it. I have been taking it for almost 2 months now and it works wonderfully. I do better on the old school meds. Lithium and Amitriptyline have been around for a very long time.
I can't begin to tell you how good it feels to have the chemical part of the equation figured out. There was a whole lot more that went into feeling as good as I do now. There was a lot of nasty, rotten uncovering of my past and trying to come to grips with it all. I know I still have work to do and probably always will, but I am happy with the progress I have made with the help of my Doc. And therapist. One day at a time. It is nice to be able to say and actually feel as if, Life is Good!
I was taking the generic for Xanax in a small dose. It did the trick. It wasn't perfect, but it was ok. The state is cracking down on Doctors prescribing all benzos due to their addictive qualities. I am going to guess, but I think it was like 6 months ago, my Doc prescribed Buspirone for me. I like it much better than the xanax because it is much smoother. The Benzos work wonderfully when you first take the dosage, but they wear off quickly. The Buspirone builds up in your system and stays at a nice, even level. My anxiety has been under control now for a while and I feel very good.
When the anxiety was under control, I was now able to really feel my MDD. When the anxiety was high, I didn't notice the depression as much, but as soon as the anxiety was under control, the depression was horrible. Doc and I tried Prozac, but to no avail. I needed something much stronger. I talked to Doc about Amitriptyline. We agreed to try it. I have been taking it for almost 2 months now and it works wonderfully. I do better on the old school meds. Lithium and Amitriptyline have been around for a very long time.
I can't begin to tell you how good it feels to have the chemical part of the equation figured out. There was a whole lot more that went into feeling as good as I do now. There was a lot of nasty, rotten uncovering of my past and trying to come to grips with it all. I know I still have work to do and probably always will, but I am happy with the progress I have made with the help of my Doc. And therapist. One day at a time. It is nice to be able to say and actually feel as if, Life is Good!
