I Wish I Was Dead

[8888]

8888, how are you doing?

A little better thanks. I am still obsessing but not wishing I was dead as much.

 

[VikVikViktorious]

Yeah. I feel your pain. I remember how I used to think everyone with a mental illness is just "faking it" or has a "bad attitude."

Boy am I humbled.... And absolutely furious about the fact that I can now only relate to "Crazy people." I've become so distant from my friends because I can't even enjoy their company anymore. My trauma is on my mind constantly and I can't just sit around and laugh with them anymore. I can't explain my trauma to them because of what it involves.

I'm so sad to be able to relate to you all. I'm having so much damn trouble accepting this.

 

[EveHarrington]

:hug:

Hope you're doing a bit better----

 

[8888]

Yeah. I feel your pain. I remember how I used to think everyone with a mental illness is just "fa...

Sorry to hear you can relate.

 

[8888]

:hug:

Hope you're doing a bit better----

Thank you for the hug, I am doing better.

 

[Geoffry777]

My therapist doesn't want me to talk about my trauma anymore, she thinks I'm obsessing over it. (I do have...

My dear the Lord will not take you away but he will make you better with this pain that you're suffering from. Pain is an incredibly wise and structure in life I know you're hurting and you want to escape but I know the feeling I beg you to stay cool and not injure yourself. I love you.

 

[8888]

My dear the Lord will not take you away but he will make you better with this pain that you're suffe...

Thank you for caring, I appreciate it. But I'm prefer that on my threads you don't talk about religion because it triggers my PTSD. But you didn't know, so it's fine. Come to think of it I should put that in my signature.

 

[The Albatross]

You made you're preference, this is your thread. Kudos to you for keeping your voice. I am glad to read that you are doing better.

 

[8888]

You made you're preference, this is your thread. Kudos to you for keeping your voice. I am glad...

Thank you!

 

[1234578]

I'm not suicidal and I won't actually do it but I really do wish I wasn't ever born or that I was dead. When I was a child I was always so happy but in the last few years things have gone from bad to worse. I'm only 24 and I just feel that it's not going to get better. So many other people have something going for them and I just don't. Even the good things that happen to me are short lived. I know I'm so young but it doesn't seem like it's going to get better. Even medication and councilling won't work as I've heard so many stories that people still feel the same even though they've had countless medicines and therapy. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm so fed up of life. I Just feel like it's never gonna get better. As soon as it starts looking up something happens and I'm straight back to square one. I've lost interest in everything and I just can't bare it anymore. I don't know what to do

 

[erigby]

I'm not suicidal and I won't actually do it but I really do wish I wasn't ever born or that I was dead...

@1234578 try starting a new thread. You are more likely to get more responses which may help you during this difficult time. All you need to do is click on the tab Depression etc. and then click on the blue tab at the top that says post a new thread.
In the mean time...I am so sorry you are feeling this way.
I encourage you not to take the experience of others (in terms of medication and therapy) to necessarily determine how you will overcome this tremendous obstacle in your life.
Any feeling of hopelessness can be overwhelming.
I hope you will start a new conversation as I have mentioned above.
I know you will find much needed support.
And a host of individuals who can attest...sometimes therapy and medication make all the difference in the world.
I can attest that to be true in my case.