Die.

[Kailani]

Hugs for you! Been there many a time!!! It has helped me to make a list of issues and next to that, list anything I can change to make it better. Just the writing makes me sometimes feel like I have talked to someone. And then I know that I am doing my part to change things. Other times I just give it a few days to lighten up. Other times I call my friends and support systems and people that are really good with advice. Sometimes I just sit and smoke. My pets help me feel better. Hope you feel better. I also remind myself that being suicidal has been a coping mechanism. Sometimes I really run away to another state. Hope something helps

 

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How are doing @EveHarrington?

 

[Friday]

I see no future. I see no positive outcomes.

I have to remind myself a lot that just because I don't see a future, doesn't mean there isn't one.

 

[Mytime]

Eve sending you hugs:)

 

[EveHarrington]

How are doing

I'm still around. Feel guilty for posting though. :-/

 

[sedna]

Hi Eve! I've been staring at nothing in my favorite chair because I need to go start my horrible new week tomorrow. For some reason I forget that staying up all night doesnt make the morning stay away. It makes the morning show up while you're a zombie and look like shit. I will never learn.

I'm so glad you're okay. Don't feel guilty. You somebody might need to post similar feelings and its easier when they've seen someone else do it before. :)

 

[sedna]

** you know somebody might need to.

I really need to just buy a new damn chromebook. There are 12 missing keys and oreo bits jammed in the guts of this one.

 

[Stickler]

I'm sorry you're feeling this bad.
Right now I'm there too.

 

[Snowflake]

Me too

 

[TinkerG]

I am sorry you are all having a rough time right now, I wish I had the right words to take it away... I need you all right here to post your knowledge, feelings and thoughts so I can read it, think about what you say and learn from it!

...My doc put me on a new med last month but my hair started falling out in clumps. I can call him on Monday to see if he will start me on something new. I have not much luck with meds but I hope something will help....

I've been given many different meds over the years and nothing has work for me... I did like wellbutrin when it first came out for a couple of years I called it my "happy" pill...I had so much energy, I accomplished so much, my memory worked better and I was always happy... but it was just covering up my symptoms (great for avoidance) and I developed an allergy to it and now I cant take any of that class of drugs anymore. They recently tried to give me two new drugs but I read the side effects and said no way...it was scarier than my CPTSD!

 

[EveHarrington]

I don't know how to dig myself out of this hole.

I don't think I even have a right to post anymore since I'm now one of those people who posts the same stuff and isn't working on healing.

I wish there was this place you could go and hand in your life. Say it's over, I'm done, and ready to go. Let me go peacefully rather than make me live in this prison.

 

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Thinking of you @EveHarrington :)