In Trying To Find A Way To Describe How I Felt Yesterday I Found This

[Gs172003]

Thoughts?


Examples on dissociation and more information


I have an issue with trains. I'm not sure if it's because of my childhood or because of when I was married to the jerk we lived next to train tracks our first six months to year ( I don't remember).

Anyway trying to think of how to describe what happened yesterday I found this link.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

How did you feel? Theres many levels of disassociation and it feels different for most.

 

[Gs172003]

How did you feel? Theres many levels of disassociation and it feels different for most.[/QUO...

I don't know how to describe it but I'll try.

I was swimming in the river and was using noodles ( we had been canoing) not far from a railroad bridge. I heard the train in the distance and immediately knew what was coming. I closed my eyes and my mind went...blank. completely blank. My eyes darted back and forth even closed and I cried. But the feelings I can't describe. Confusion?

But once it was over after a couple minutes I was OK. But then a second train on the way out of the park I actually saw coming and for that one I zoned out. I didn't shake.

Makes no damn sense. Does it.

 

[Gs172003]

I do know the feeling. Dread. Dread was what I felt. And at the same time hollow and empty.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Makes no damn sense. Does it.

Sure it does. It sounds like disassocations to me.

I zone out, eyes glazed, stare straight, gone.

But all have different disassocation experiences.

 

[Gs172003]

No. Dread ain't it. I don't understand this.

 

[Gs172003]

Sure it does. It sounds like disassocations to me.

I zone out, eyes glazed, stare straigh...

When it's intimacy related my brain gets loud. Real loud. Distracting. This is Soooo different. And odd. I don't like it. At. all.

 

[Enaila]

I feel like I am being swept away....like I was fighting the current one minute and then just give up and float. My mind feels like it is struggling then things are happening around me, but I'm no longer part of the action.

 

[Gs172003]

I feel like I am being swept away....like I was fighting the current one minute and then just give up an...

I don't feel like that I feel like I can't do anything but I can still function at the same time if that makes sense. Sometimes I just daze. If its my brain being distracting a song will play real loud on repeat and won't stop until whatever stops or I ground myself. Wacked.

 

[pixel]

Great link

Thanx

 

[Gs172003]

Great link

Thanx

You're welcome

 

[pixel]

I have so much I want to share but can't find the words.

That link you shared, and the comments posted here, they reach inside like a light-ray into my dark dissociated world. It helps me feel like a part of something, a connexion or similarity to others.

Again, thank you.