How Often Do You Fly Off The Handle?

[Deleted member 38644]

Lord, you don't want to count the times I've either "lost it", got "pissed off", called people...

Lol yessss right on

 

[physicist13]

maybe once or twice a month... about half in private half seen by other people

 

[eloc]

while driving - in the country I am in people flash their lights to tell you to move over so they can race up the behind of the car directly in front of you - it sends me into rage or passive agressive slow driving. When kids under three playing in the street unsupervised run in front the car, when any man decides he needs to help me to drive ie waving me out or through when they don't have a licence themselves . When anything goes wrong and people can't fix it immediately - all the time which is why I am not at work and keep mostly to myself, When I am doing something that I need to concentrate on and the kids need something - yep all the time. So I do few things and try not to engage much and try to be available/level for the kids

 

[Deleted member 38644]

while driving - in the country I am in people flash their lights to tell you to move over so they can race...

Right on!!!!

 

[Toriplays]

I have a hard time expressing anger. I don't like it. When I do get mad I just tell the truth in a harsh way. I don't attack people or lash out physically. I work with a woman that triggers me. I tend to avoid talking to her because there is something so oppositional and invalidating about our conversations. I found myself feeling rage when I interacted with her. One day I turned around and told her I think it's best if we didn't talk.

 

[SophiaWisdom]

I love you guys and this thread so much right now. From @Gadgie to everyone else who chimed in thank you for making me feel less alone and like a freak as usual!

I am SO INCREDIBLY ANGRY - it's my main feeling I identify with right now and part of it is purposeful b/c I'm embracing that disowned part of me. I call her Beast and she's the one that helped me survive my childhood of abuse and molestation by my mother (ohhhh I could talk for years about having an NPD mother who is Satan incarnate on earth unfortunately).

But yes jus last night I had trouble sleeping and had to take a Xanax b/c someone I've long disliked pissed me off but of course was too big of an oldk overgrown baby to talk about it without whining constantly so I just got quiet and got out of the car and went home and vented to a trusted person who was like "it's not worth your energy; you can't change people; they don't want to listen."

I have this sense of injustice so when someone picks on my friends or tramples over boundaries I fly into this seething murderous rage. I have had people two times my size/weight run from me from a look or somehting I said alone (and I'm barely over 100 pounds and very small -boned). It makes me laugh! I'm so tiny and was so victimized it's hard to think that giant behemoths who could crush me with one finger are terrified of me but I LOVE IT. It finally gives me a sense of empowerment so right now I'm just going to accept that it's a vital part of me until I can move to whatever the next level is. But I truly love having a good yell, I just dont' do it b/c I know it's toxic and very draining and unproductive and inefficient.

But yes I hate many many things and people and wish I could tell people off all day long but I live in a really passive-aggressive city with a very conservative softspoken church so I'm like a wild beast muzzled by stupidity and denial.

 

[Heather]

I was doing really good but went off on idiot neighbor tonight.

 

[eloc]

injustice is also one of my triggers - friend murdered by ex - never been to trial as far as I am aware, more than 5 colleagues killed by terrorists- I think a couple of people were tried but not even sure they did it, nephew who was three and like brother to my children dies from cancer or the chemo effects really, Car accident where car nicks mine and collapses brick fence on my sister in law, son and second son miraculously noone hurt but young probably drunk driver legs it and his lawyer dad pretends to be the driver, Deal with how much poverty sucks on a daily basis as part of my job including supporting advocacy groups working to get child sexual abuse and exploitation in their area reported and I get PTSD from my job and these concurrent events and four years later still battling my employers voluntary foreign workers insurance BS to try and get some money to support my kids .... I tried to study to see if I could do work like activity - just one subject but I was just outraged researching financialisation of the poor that I could not function... yep injustice is my thing but I can't touch it with a barge pole now.

 

[J'qel]

Not as much as I used to. My abusers made me look at my own anger issues and realize them for the monsters they are. I will not be them. I refuse.

When my PTSD finally bloomed into full blown monster-it became almost impossible to control and I had enough self awareness to know I was out of control and getting ridiculously angry over stupid things. I was hurting the people around me and destroying my life.

So I got help. I went to therapy, got some meds that worked and I've been doing pretty good. I rarely ever get truly angry now, instead I get fully indignant, repulsed or irritated, but not screaming angry and throwing things across the room anymore. In fact I even rarely vocalize my irritations, because I recognize that they're just that-little irritants that really don't matter.

My anger no longer rules my life and rages at every tiny little thing. It's lovely.

Don't knock good therapists and great doctors. They can give you a life you didn't even believe existed.

 

[Llith]

I have very mixed feelings towards being angry.

I used to have an incredibly short fuse and had multiple therapists for anger management since I was 11. The therapy summary was: my dad had major anger issues and so I reacted to them to defend myself -> rather explosively. That then meant I saw everything as an attack and reacted by attacking back by default.

That being said, I now have an incredibly long fuse unless I trust you to still like me afterwards. I am too scared to loose friends and scare people with being angry as I have lost a lot of people that way. Kids at school used to be scared of me, and bully me because I got angry so quickly. It wasn't fun. Now I feel furious but apparently no one externally can tell, makes it pretty awkward when you apologise and they look at you confused unaware you were even affected by x situation.

I think anger is just one MASSIVE trigger to me.

 

[Matt Jackson]

Used to be 2-3 times a day. Major adult tantrums. I've got it down to about once a fortnight now.....