DID Just because i have voices does that mean i have did?

[zoie33]

Ragdoll Circus, thank you so much for that response it makes a lot of sense I think. I think one of my main problems is that I grew up in a very abusive household as an only child so I've always lived my entire life in my head and I've always had non-stop conversations with myself in my head so I'm having a hard time differentiating between whether there really are voices or if it's all just me talking to myself. Also I think through various forms of therapy and EMDR I'm now becoming more aware or what's going on in my head. I know I dissociate during which times I'm pretty much aware of everything that is going on around me it is just that I'm zoned out and can't look him in the eyes. I know a couple times while I was dissociating the therapist asked me a question and a different part of me snapped around and stared him straight in the eyes and gave him the answer that I'm not afraid to die. While I totally agree with that statement it shocked me because it wasn't me at the time that actually made that comment. It was only when I perceived my critical voice wanting me to do something I didn't want to do that I started taking back to it as an actual different entity. Since then I have noticed a helper voice and yesterday I think I noticed a child voice. That is the one that seems to always want me to eat crap that I shouldn't or avoid doing everyday tasks in lieu of playing computer games or reading or whatever they want to do instead. At least that is my current interpretation. Then again I wonder am I just making all this up. I feel like I'm going insane. I'm definitely looking forward to my next session so i can kind of get a better understanding. Not that he knows what's going on in my head especially since I don't. I do trust him though he specializes in dissociative disorders and trauma and he's very accepting and understanding of everything I've been telling him
I really appreciate your kind words and encouragement. You are correct I went to him originally to get over a car accident and had no idea how many cans of worms this would open up. In a way I guess the accident was a good thing in a way This is not my first go-around in therapy I was barely holding on before the accident but at least this time I finally have a therapist that can deal with my problems. in the past they only put a bandaid on my suicidal ideology.

 

[The Albatross]

I have DID attributes but not DID per se (so sayeth the shrink) - I am he said, a "fractured" personality. The voices were both my main abusers and also my own (the main three though there were some others very occasionally that are pretty much unidentified and that's okay)... I don't though appear to have "others"... though I do have disassociative tendencies.

Agree with Intrepid.

 

[Sideways]

This is not my first go-around in therapy I was barely holding on before the accident but at least this time I finally have a therapist that can deal with my problems.

It sounds like you have a good T that you trust, which is so incredibly important. It also sounds like you've got a tough time ahead working through a lot of this stuff, but it's gonna be worth it.

I know the feeling when you're trying to figure out what parts of your head are healthy and what parts are messed up. Periodically I still feel completely mad. But it does get better. It really does:)