Please help me

[EveHarrington]

I'm at the point where I know I need something more intensive. I was about to make another attempt but God knows I'd f*ck it up, end up in the local hospital for a few days, and be right back where I started.

The local "day" program I wrote about isn't all day, it's just a few groups a week and then an individual therapy session. I know it's not enough. I know I need something more. This is all that is available locally.

I have a psychiatrist who is willing to refer me if I tell him I need more treatment. Which I do. I just don't have a therapist right now.

I think I'm looking for a residential type program. I don't know where to start looking though.

Thanks.

 

[Deleted member 37474]

I am glad that you changed your mind and am looking for a way to get better. I hope people that know of good places will list them off for you asap!

 

[hodge]

I'm so sorry, Eve, but glad you are looking for better treatment. I'm pretty good at online research. If you pm me the county and state you live in, I would be happy to research places for you.

 

[anthony]

Whats your biggest issue right now Eve?

 

[Deleted member 37085]

Eve that you have a psychiatrist you said that is willing to refer you to treatment program this is a good direction in which to go in so are you going to tell your psychiatrist that you are ready for him to refer you to a specific treatment program that he is willing to refer you to?

 

[EmmaOwl]

I'm at the point where I know I need something more intensive. I was about to make another attemp...

Hi Eve. I just want to say, you're in my thoughts. I would like to offer moral support, and I'm glad to see there are people here who are in a better position to help you in a more tangible way. Take care of yourself.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Does your insurence help with being admitted to a mental health hospital? And if so, is that just locally or can you branch out some and cast a wider net? I don't mean out of State but just out of your local area.

I know a therapist would be out if not local as thats an every week sort of come and go. I mean inpatient. If you were that close to suicide (or are still) I would say inpatient is approprate. I know you said you were inpatient at least once before. How did that work before and is that business still an avail option to go to again?

Have you checked for DBT groups yet? Workbooks are great but the groups are better. If no groups def still buy the workbooks as they can be well used over a very long time.

Any other sorts of groups around? Maybe at churches? I know there are sexual abuse groups. At least there are here. Theres a group for most things these days. Or maybe even a small group at a church to meet with to widen your support network. I know you are religous or I wouldn't of advised it.

Also, I agree with Anthony, can you name your biggest struggle or a few top struggles? If you can, do you mind sharing? Or, even if not, work on that one or few issue(s) first and not just the entire "stabilty" issue as a whole. It took me a long while to figure out how to work on one or a couple of issues at a time rather then the whole. Even after I made "the big step", it took a long time after that to figure out how to do that. Not sure if that is what's going on (trying to work on the whole rather then piece by piece) or if that is why Anthony asked that but thought I would include in case.

 

[joeylittle]

Sheppard Pratt Trauma Disorders program[/quote]

[url="http://riveroakshospital.com/programs/trauma-based-mental-disorders/trauma-based-disorders/"]River Oaks Hospital Trauma-Based Disorders program

McLean Psychiatric Clinical Services

These are the three I'm familiar with.

This post has links to some threads about Sheppard and River Oaks.[/url]

 

[Cannottakethis]

HI Eve
It looks like you are in Canada. I know that at River OAks there were Canadians both times.

Sidran.org | PTSD and Dissociation Resources for Survivors, Supporters and Professionals

This organization was very instrumental in helping me when I first started looking for places before I'd even heard about this site. Maybe it can help you too.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

It looks like you are in Canada.

VPN. Shes in the US.

Sorry to answer for you Eve.

 

[EveHarrington]

Thank you all for your concern and help.

I apologize for not responding sooner. I read the responses that first night and started to look into the different programs. A number of them require you to already have a psychiatrist and a therapist, so those were out since I don't have a therapist. Another one said you needed to see your referring Doctor within 24 hours of admittance and since my doctor is not all that close and the treatment center was a day's drive (or a plane ride) away, that was discouraging as well. I was frustrated that night and just decided to go to bed.

The next day I looked into local options again and contacted the day program again. They discussed treatment options with me and want me to start going to the program next week to get oriented and see if it's a good fit. It turns out they have more options than I originally thought as they've recently expanded their program. They don't take my insurance but I qualify for a funding grant because I was in the hospital within the last 3 months.

I feel so much calmer now that I have this option for treatment and don't feel as overwhelmed. I really hope it works out because it looks like I could be in the program for 3 months (minimum) and they can give me support with local types of things like housing and volunteering and possibly working again. It's not a trauma program but it can give me the support I need. They can also give me an individual therapist, too.

What I'm struggling with most right now is the feeling of instability. As soon as I feel this way, the thoughts of suicide and harming myself become strong. And I just want to give up. I didn't think that simply finding a treatment option would make me feel so much more stable. I know it's going to take a lot more work than just finding treatment but I think this is a positive first step.

 

[Deleted member 37474]

I am so happy to hear this! You have really become proactive in your healing!