Undiagnosed Help please. bullying & ocd & panic disorder

[odette]

Well, I used to be skinny as a kid, I mean, like underweight. Later on in life I gained too much we...

Aww thanks so much! I will do that as I do have a binge eating problem, I hate to say disorder of any sorts because it feels too real and serious for me. But I will join OA when this anxiety (I really hope) passes.

 

[Changing4Best]

Who knows, but that OA might even help to relieve your anxiety too. It is a powerful thing, the love you receive there. It has a calming affect on me anyway. Here is a link to where they have the online OA meetings, for when you are ready. The meetings are free, no cost. You can donate if you like, but it is not mandatory:

12 Step 4 COE's

Just click on the "MEETINGS" button and you will find out what to do from there by reading what it says. And may your journey with OA be a great one!

 

[odette]

Who knows, but that OA might even help to relieve your anxiety too. It is a powerful thing, the lov...

Thank you sooo much I hope it helps, I really do. I'm going on the site right now and checking it out!

 

[Changing4Best]

Great. Keep coming back to this site too, it is really helpful and supportive too.

 

[joeylittle]

@odette - may I ask, how old are you?

You mentioned working with a therapist and psychiatrist. Have you told them about thinking you saw the girl, and the trouble you are having with sleep?

I need to know I have OCD so knowing every detail matters.

Is this how your therapist recommends you deal with your OCD? If not, what do they suggest you do?

I also have OCD like symptoms, so I have a fear and a lot of what if? Anxiety. I fear losing control and not being in reality, I fear having a flashback. I fear going outside ( I was diagnosed with agoraphobia). Also, I constantly seek reassurance, so I repeatedly ask whether something was true or not..which I'm doing now...I want to say sorry if I am overbearing. I am at high level anxiety.

So you have OCD and Agoraphobia, diagnosed. What are you doing in therapy to work on those?

I was prescribed Prozac by a psychiatrist because I had panic disorder and ocd.

You also have panic disorder.

I've been bullied my whole life which is why I fear I have developed ptsd from it.

Given what you've said about your other diagnoses, I am not surprised you are afraid you have PTSD. No-one here can diagnose you, but I agree with others - what you describe does not sound like it would lead to PTSD. It does sound like you have been through a really bad experience, and should be working on all of these issues in therapy. I am not certain that a PTSD forum is the right place for you, especially given that you are prone towards general anxiety about your health.

I will do that as I do have a binge eating problem, I hate to say disorder of any sorts because it feels too real and serious for me.

And a binge eating problem.

You are clearly struggling and are in need of support. I'm going to guess that you are a teenager, given what you've said about high school . You should also know that simply being a teenager is highly stressful for the brain. Scientifically speaking, the teenage brain is a real tornado of hormones and development. It makes everything infinitely harder.

This is why it is vital for teenagers who may be dealing with mental illness to have good, solid, regular real-life clinical support. Your therapist should be your first port of call for all of this. How often do you see them? Do you think they are giving you what you need? Is your family understanding of the support you need in therapy?

 

[odette]

@odette - may I ask, how old are you?

You mentioned working with a therapist an...

I am 19! I just recently started seeing a therapist, I only met for an intake and that's about it. I see my therapist in two weeks. I hate burdening people, he has a lot of clients and messaging him is something I hate. He gives me short answers basically sayin I should wait to come in and if I can't to call and talk to another therapist since he is busy. I have not talked about ocd with him, my psychiatrist diagnosed me and she told me it's pretty much that and panic. I know, being a teen is hard..but I feel too young to go through all of these things. My family is definitely supportive, my mom and sister encourage me to go to therapy and take meds. I haven't seen a therapist long enough to know if they are giving me the proper treatment I need. I have a fear having this disoder, which I feel sorry for joining this forum. But I do relate to those who have been through trauma and I thought I had symptoms of ptsd, but I know it's not that clear cut.

 

[joeylittle]

OK. So you really haven't started with your therapist yet. Did your psychiatrist give you any advice on how to manage the OCD?

But I do relate to those who have been through trauma and I thought I had symptoms of ptsd, but I know it's not that clear cut.

You may relate to people who have been through traumatic events, but you do not relate to people who have been through PTSD qualifying trauma. There is a big difference. It's a bit like person A, with measles, saying to person B, with chicken pox, that they identify with the itching. They aren't really similar, except in a very, very broad way.

I'm glad your family is supportive - that's really very helpful.

There will be a lot to work on in therapy, everything from coping skills to talking about the things that have happened in your life, to wrestling with your negative sense of self. After you've spent time with the therapist, and after continued visits to the psychiatrist, they may discuss your diagnosis again, and it may shift. Diagnosing mental health is still a baby science.

You may find certain things here useful - I'd encourage you to search for anxiety management techniques. But OCD, which is your primary diagnosis, is not something we really deal with here. It will not be helpful for you to try and understand your thoughts and reactions in a PTSD context - they are more likely specific to OCD, according to your doctor.

 

[Changing4Best]

I think you could have PTSD, but I am no expert. I am just guessing by your symptoms and what you have shared here. Only a professional can truly diagnose it. It can take time to diagnose too, mine was not immediately addressed by my psychiatrist, but later came up. My full trauma was repressed and therefore my PTSD was not able to be diagnosed until it surfaced. Definitely keep going to your Dr.s and Therapist and if you feel the therapist is giving you the short shift, change to another one! There is no rule that you have to stay with one who makes you feel that you are anything less than welcome. Mine makes me feel comfortable and welcome. I would not want it any other way!

As to staying with this website, until PTSD has been definitely ruled out in your case by your professionals, I would recommend staying with this site. In my humble opinion, you are welcome here!

 

[odette]

Oh man, one says ptsd another says not.. I am so confused and this is fueling my anxiety. I took an intake there was a ptsd section I believe and I was never diagnosed. I was diagnosed , since last year with depression and panic..maybe I need to talk more and more about how I feel about what happened to see if I have PTSD. The next appt. I definitely will...I want an official diagnoses, so I will overshare if I have to in order to stop guessing around.

 

[odette]

OK. So you really haven't started with your therapist yet. Did your psychiatrist give you any advi...

Yes, this site is definitely fueling my OCD tendencies, I feel one second I don't then I see a post and will search all over the internet to prove otherwise. I'm afraid of opening up in therapy, but I want the bad dreams of people from my past to go away and I want to move on. So I will do what it takes

 

[odette]

I think you could have PTSD, but I am no expert. I am just guessing by your symptoms and what you h...

Thank you, people are really nice on here:) but this is a big fear of mine: I had a terrible week a month ago where I had an intrusive thought that I was molested. I then panicked soooo had I had an intense attack and felt pain in my gronial area...to be honest I will not go further with this as it's making me anxious now

 

[joeylittle]

Oh man, one says ptsd another says not.. I am so confused and this is fueling my anxiety. I took an inta...

Now you've added depression to the mix.

I'm going to put you on a temporary ban, as you are spinning out and that's not helpful for you or the forum. You're welcome to come back once you've had a chance to get your feet under you and see a therapist.