Worthlessness

[Jimmy1]

Every morning I struggle to get out of bed and still search for my purpose in life.

Dan, I bought a six week old dog. He shows unconditional love, He knows nothing else but what I teach him.
He demands my attention no matter how bad I feel and I can't ignore it, and he makes me laugh with his antics.

If you get the chance it's a thought. And buy one that can be trained as a ptsd dog.

 

[Chin Strapped]

I have wanted a springer spaniel for some time, however my current house is small and located smack bang in the middle of a city. I can't wait to move out into the sticks; for obvious reasons. I noticed a few of you guys talking about ptsd dogs, what you have just said makes complete sense, unconditional companionship isn't going to hurt anyone.

So, in a couple of years I will be getting a dog; I must research around ptsd dogs, the one you have looks a little beauty.

 

[Afghanmadman52nd]

A beautiful dog, Jimmy. Is he an Australian Shepherd?

 

[Chin Strapped]

Over time (and I know how hard it is to be patient now) the sharp edge wears off and the waves don't come near as often.

I'm grasping how long this road is, respect to all of you who have battLed the beast for so long. Denial has been very much me unti late, still finding accepting it difficult, but no one has said it was easy. Just having a proper read on here for the first time today, albeit on my crappy phone.

 

[JarHed]

It's the same for us all Brother. We go through stages in our struggle to get better. It's not a straight line to the goal. There are always ups and downs. And as you think you're approaching the goal it may seem a bit farther away than you thought. You have to believe that you can get better before you will. Stay the course and remember to enjoy the little things in this life, they're what truly make it all worthwhile.

 

[Jimmy1]

A beautiful dog, Jimmy. Is he an Australian Shepherd?

Border Collie mate

 

[Afghanmadman52nd]

Oh okay buddy, still beautiful :)

 

[Chin Strapped]

I pretty much smoked weed all the time due to the fact I would struggle to enjoy life otherwise, now I am getting the meds sorted I will hopefully pick up a bit; I do want to enjoy life again.

One issue that has never left me since my return from tour, was an inabilty to truly rest and feel satisfied. I can come home after a day of work and never find peace, like I'd rather keep busy, or at th very least fidget until my wife gets feD up with me. Struggle to feel complacency, pretty much daily. I envy those who can return home from work and flick the TV on and chill weed free! I'm working on it though, just a shame there's no fast forward button.

 

[JarHed]

I do want to enjoy life again.

That's a good thing Mate. Inside you want to feel better. You're moving in the right direction.

just a shame there's no fast forward button.

Me too. Learning to live every day is challenging. It's not a bad thing but that never goes away.

 

[Chin Strapped]

I find mental health fascinating. We are all different people, different experiences and spread out all over the globe; but this combat ptsd is something we all have in common, even down to the symptoms, often strange as they are. It's such a positive to hear similar stories from you guys, this can get quite lonely otherwise! Genuine empathy is second to none.

 

[Jimmy1]

Man, I am amazed that I can tune into this site and talk to someone on the other side of the globe that has the same problems as me.

Mate, I hate not being able to chill too. I can sleep for four or five hours, but feeling rested. Maybe once a month I will wake up feeling relaxed. Very rare though. I am always wired. Maybe because I main line caffeine.

 

[Chin Strapped]

Now I don't self medicate, I fidget like a 3 year old. Sometimes I feel I could just stand up all night, while me and the Mrs watch TV! Had that since day one, became a bit of a joke.