Worthlessness

[Spock]

Fascinating thread guys, it was very interesting. HyperVig and restlessness are tough for me too.

 

[Spock]

Oh, and I agree dogs over weed.

 

[Anglesachse]

Now I don't self medicate, I fidget like a 3 year old. Sometimes I feel I could just stand up all night, while me and the Mrs watch TV! Had that since day one, became a bit of a joke.

So what are you watching with your misses at Night to ensure it`s standing with you Dan Cocker?

Not that she told me it was a joke or anything :D

 

[Chin Strapped]

Countdown, Carol's replacement is great for my marriage.

 

[Chin Strapped]

Starting to feel an overwhelming feeling of worthlessness, each day I wake up it's getting deeper. Can't sit still, got to keep busy.

Busy doing jobs, however it feels as if there is no point.

Now this ptsd has kicked in and I'm learning to manage it, it's bloody hard work. At least I can recognise the imminent dark period.

Thought I'd be depressing and let you folk know it's coming and it feels more difficult!

The state of the world is currently not helping.

 

[Anglesachse]

Comes and goes cocker, just ride it out, the sun is allways shining on the other side.

As for the rest of the world, let them rip each others throats out, you can`t change anything so look the otherway and concentrate on Number 1.

 

[Chin Strapped]

Wise words mate, cheers.

I'm going to do just that, need to switch off to everything bar earning cash and watching my head! My Mrs is a reasonable help too.

 

[Jimmy1]

God bless them, I would not know where I would be without her, probably either locked up or dead.

Dan, I have to remind myself every day. I try and pretend to be as normal as everybody else, but the subtle reminders are there all the time and that shits me.

You are bang on the money too, it is hard work, but the question we have to ask is 'Is it worth it'. If the the answer is ever know then you have to test and adjust.

Cheers guys

 

[AfricaVet]

Dogs over everything. Nowhere else will you get the unconditional love and empathy. Worthlessness is an overwhelming urge and can ruin you. I turned it into a mission to save the world. For 20 years, I had to save everyone. Hardest assignments, seeking danger and being the hero. The job was all that counted had to transfer every two to three years as the challenges became less stimulating. At work you're the best. At home, I withdraw and feel lonely, worthless and afraid. I finally got tired and sought help. Last year has been the hardest of my life. There are better days and I still want to run away and live alone in a cabin with my dog to escape from the banality of civilian life.