Transition Of Emotion To Numb To Emotion

[HereticCurt]

The night before last my wife, a friend, and I were out on the town. My wife decided to drive since I just had eye surgery. On the way there, she did some crazy maneuvering while talking on a cellphone. I told her she was freaking me out and to please wait until she's not driving to talk or to drive safely. She ignored me. I grabbed the phone and turned it off while she was mid-conversation. She got angry and did some crazy swerving, almost colliding with a car to the side of us. That's when it happened. I had been angry all day, when I got home, the anger got so intense that I went what she calls "psychotic calm." My voice goes monotone and I sound like an asshole apparently.

After her crazy move on the road, that psychotic calmness turned into pure rage. I screamed at her and threatened violence and death. I am a loving person normally, so I don't understand this. It was almost like a reflex. I couldn't control it. What the hell is going on?!

 

[holdenmonty]

Sounds like the beast to me, being PTSD. Luckily I'm the one that usually drives because my wife likes to ride the lines on the road or wait until we are almost on top of somebody to put on the breaks. Drives me crazy. Next time you see your therapist you should tell them about it. I had a thought of stabbing somebody so I went immediately to mental health and told them about it and they said if it is a fleeting thought and you know yourself that you wouldn't actually go through with the act but it's still enough to scare the crap out of yourself.

 

[dutchiedelta]

The night before last was tuesday. You were here online.
If your wife drove cos of your eyesurgery it's a flaming miracle how well you manage to type.
Congratulations, you probably drive a DeLorean and manage to be in two places at the same time.
Out on the town after eyesurgery and not able to drive AND here as well.
Respect.

 

[holdenmonty]

Didn't even think of that good point dutchie

 

[Grizzly]

The night before last was tuesday. You were here online.
If your wife drove cos of your eyesurgery it's a flaming miracle how well you manage to type.
Congratulations, you probably drive a DeLorean and manage to be in two places at the same time.
Out on the town after eyesurgery and not able to drive AND here as well.
Respect.

He's the only kid ever to get into trouble before he was born.

Sorry couldnt resist.

In all serious HC. Threatening violence is serious. You need to bring it to your T. Even if it is a fleeting thought.

 

[HereticCurt]

I'm quite afraid of being put in Gulf Oaks or a long term facility. We just got my son back and I don't want to be away from him and my wife. I'm pretty sure they'll lock me up.

 

[HereticCurt]

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   All good, didn't think that it would be that public, yikes. Glad I know now.
   
   Tuesday at 11:51 AM
   
   Tuesday around noon was my last post until today, thursday. You're welcome not to like me, or believe me. I do ask that you refrain from replying to my posts though, at least until you get your shit together.

 

[dutchiedelta]

You can ask all you like but until an admin tells me to, suck it up buttercup.
My shit reader is on and oh lookey here, the light is blinking

 

[HereticCurt]

Yeah well my shit reader says that you're a judgemental, paranoid, narsasistic, masochist. You drew your opinion based on one post and acted irrationally instead of simply expressing your feelings and asking if that's what I actually meant, you read into things that aren't actually there (meaning you take your subjective view of the world and run to others telling them it's concrete fact, hoping for a bandwagon). You are so into yourself that you can't look outside of your own little sphere to see that other people are suffering too. And, you seem to enjoy crucifying other people with your words.

I know you may have your own shit to go through, but there is no need to bring other people down. So politely, f*ck off.

-One pissed off mother f*cking american

 

[dutchiedelta]

My. such fancy words. Will get a dictionary to look up what dem all means.
Projection is an ugly thing, for all those involved.
Nah lad, not just one post. A bt more but you know what. you ain't worth an explanation.
You're sussed out and does that sting or what?
Good luck with the research paper/thesis or ma achpatli bechlal.

 

[HereticCurt]

Yeah buddy, try speaking English next time. I don't understand half of the expressions you use.

 

[Spock]

This is not an American-only site so there are several different expressions used on the forum