Idk what to call this it is so horrible!

[BpinkJ]

I don't even know where to start. I started back in T because my PTSD, Panic Disorder and Anxiety were acting up bad. I have been seeing this T for almost 2 months. She suggested I see a psychiatrist. I had an appointment at the end of Sept. The office called me and said that they have a new Doc that joined and that he could see me on Aug. 9th. I said yes because I have only been sleeping a few hours each night which in turn makes everything else flare worse.

So Aug 9...the plan go to the appointment and then take the kids swimming. I was having a good day and wanted the kids to do something fun. I go to the appointment. I fill out a paper about 1-5 how do you feel about this and that. Then they ask for a urine sample...fine I'm not pregnant.

I then meet the psychiatrist for the first time. I don't even remember his name only that he had a strong accent that sounded middle eastern (not that it matters) but I had a hard time understanding him.

He starts off on why I am there. I told him that over the past few months thoughts in my head have become worse and come more frequent. That I get irritated faster. I told him I had a breaking point 2 months ago when I got annoyed with my kids and the thought popped in my head that OMG I could just shake you. (this was 2 months ago) When I had this thought I put my baby in his playpen and locked myself in the bathroom to calm down. The P didn't ask what I did in the situation. He just looked at me after I said that and said do you have a plan to kill yourself and I said NO.

The P then picked up his phone and called someone and said bring me a paper. So a lady walks in looking at me weird and hands him a paper. The P then starts to ask me would I like to go into the hospital for help. I told him I would surely do that on a planned day because I want to feel better, but that I would need to make arrangements for my kids because my husband works. The next thing I know he picks up his phone and says call for an ambulance.

So now I am in a panic and go out to the parking lot to call my husband. My husband and mother in law rush to where I'm at. The ambulance shows up. They were laughing and saying we aren't going to take you there is no need. Then they go in to talk to this new P that I only talked to for less then 10 mins. They come out and say he pink slipped you so we have to take you.

At the ER everyone that evaluated me said I would go home. Then I was told I had to be held over night because of this pink slip.

I ended up in the worse unit there (they have 2) and was scared to death because I heard ER nurses saying how bad one was over the other. So they take me to this bad unit and I have a panic attacks. I am sitting there hyperventilating and crying uncontrollable. I finally fall asleep in a room by myself (they wanted to put me with a room mate). When I woke up my door was open and a women was sitting across from my door against the wall rocking back and forth staring at me. I was terrified.

I tried to explain the mix up so many times but was treated like I was insane. It was so scary and there were people that literally couldn't do anything for themselves. I felt like I was trying to convince them that I am all there. I was told that if I refused meds I would be there longer.
Meds didn't bother me so much because that is why I went to a P to begin with.

I was finally put into the lower unit with people like me on the 11th. I was released today. I don't want to make this post so long....but there were many experiences and how I was treated makes me never want to go to T or a P again. At the end I had everyone apologizing to me saying sorry for the mix up and that they are going to investigate this new P and call him. I don't know how I am going to show up to T when this P is in the same building. I feel traumatized from the experience.

 

[asadafagahajakal]

I don't even know where to start. I started back in T because my PTSD, Panic Disorder and Anxiety were a...

I know what it's like being put under a microscope like this. That's been most of my childhood. I'm sorry to see you going through this. Are you under any restrictions after your release? Hope you're safe now

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I would feel traumatized had I had the same things done to me. You are very upset naturally and you have every right to be. I am so sorry this happened to you. Can you get this horrible mistake taken out of your files or made plain that was a malpractice situation? I imagine that you have to do so much self care just to keep yourself calm. I have an anxiety disorder too so I know what you go through with that. I would not want to be in the same building as that man either so can your T give you a referral to a good therapist somewhere else if that is even possible or are you stuck in that building because of your insurance? Have you contacted your T by phone or email so you can at least get the ball rolling for you. You very well may have a lawsuit against this man. I have to think about what you said and come back to this later on when I am more clear headed. I hope that someone will come along that will be able to give you some good help soon.:hug:

 

[BpinkJ]

I didn't want to put this on here but this new P also said to me so you have abuse as a child...I said yes mental, physical and sexual...he then looked at me and said like actual SEX???? I replied like well if you mean intercourse with a penis no, but touching, fingering and oral yes. I was so uncomfortable! This whole things has been a nightmare. I have never hurt anyone before. I got pink slipped because I told him of thoughts that have went through my head. Not like I plan them they just pop up and then I answer myself. Ex. I can be laying there at night and all of sudden a thought of what if your house catches on fire what would you do? I then answer myself in my mind. So when I thought I am so mad I could just shake them....was a figure of speech that he took the wrong way. He then wouldn't listen to me. My appt. was at 2:15. After paperwork and urine sample I probably got into his office at 2:40 because I remember looking at my cellphone thinking what was the hold up and it was after 2:20. I had to call my husband at 2:53 that shows in my cellphone. I can't even go into the things I was told and how I was treated once admitted.

Hope you're safe now

The thing is I was never unsafe. I just wanted meds so I could sleep a full night. I have never taken daily meds for my conditions just as needed meds.

I would feel traumatized had I had the same things done to me. You are very upset naturally and you have e...

I was just released today, so I will be calling Monday morning. My infant has sickle cell and there was a big thing yesterday for all the kids with games and free baseball tickets and then fireworks. I had to miss it all and just cried. I begged to be released. It took them days to realized what I was telling them was the truth. Then everyone started saying sorry, but we have to keep you 72 hours by law.

 

[Deleted member 42783]

Malpractice suit is worth exploring.

Your T needs to be updated on everything that happened so that he/she can verify that you have not been a danger to others.

This needs to be stricken from your medical record. Ask for all records and notes from the hospital. They should comply although you may have to nag. A lawyer would be helpful.

I am livid that this happened to you. I am a nurse on a psych floor. Like the scary one you were first on. It infuriates me when patients who don't belong there end up there. There should be a recipient rights advocate attached to the hospital your were at. Get a hold of them and explain your case as well. Legally, a doctor can petition anyone into a psych ward and it holds for 72 hours in my State. Still, initial evaluation should have secured your release. Was the psychiatrist who imprisoned you working at that hospital? Did he have an incentive in hospitalizing you? If not, did the floor psychiatrist discuss anything with you?

I know the experience was terrifying and exhausting for you. You should not drop the issue however. Mental health patients will continue to be taken advantage of if nobody fights back.

They are not required by law to keep anyone 72 hours. It is at the doctor's digression to release you early. Sadly, the nursing staff have no say in the matter.

This doctor is an idiot.

 

[BpinkJ]

I was told I had to start out on the "scary" side until they knew me and knew I wasn't a threat to myself. I didn't even have panties. The ER intern psych doc told me I would be released and then came back in and said after talking with my supervisor on the phone we have to keep you. At that time I was told overnight and things would get straightened out in the morning. I don't believe the psych was working at the hospital but he did put that I be taken to a specific hospital. The ambulance would not let me choose where I wanted to go which I thought was weird. The floor psych who is also the head of the dept saw me all the days I was there. His attitude went from stop asking me when you are going home to well even though I know you shouldn't be here lets make use of this time and figure out which meds you need. The one male nurse I had on the floor was not nice at all. He kept telling me well if you were pink slipped then you must have a reason to be here. Then he said to me didn't you say you wanted to hurt your children and yourself. I said NO. The ambulance let me see the pink slip and the doc from what we could make out (his handwriting was bad) put that he thought I was at risk to hurting myself and my children. And the best part the day before at my T appt. my oldest had marching band practice so I had to take my 1 and 3 year old with me to my appt. My T actually saw my children in good health, clean and happy. I am now taking klonipin around the clock because my nerves are so bad from this experience. The only good thing that came out is that the psych I saw while admitted understood me and helped me realize and few things about guilt that I carry. The meds he gave me I hope help....but to be told by a nurse that it will take me longer to go home if I don't take the meds is just wrong!

 

[BpinkJ]

The floor psych that is the head of that dept. told me that it had to be 72 hours. He actually waited to release me today until after 5pm to make sure it was 72 hours.

The thing I don't understand is the new P I went to see is in the same building as my T and had access to all my records with my T. He could have walked across and went to talk to my T. Instead he pink slipped me. I have a hard time expressing feelings so can say stuff like I was soooo MAD I wanted to kill him....that doesn't mean I would ever do it or make a plan to do it. That is how I express HOW MAD I am by using examples.

AND the icing on the cake....the release paperwork says I was there for major depression NOS. It says nothing of my panic disorder or PTSD.

 

[WishfulThinking123]

I'm so sorry you went through this! I actually already have a pretty skewed and negative view of psychiatrists just from my previous field of work and educational background in psychology. Personally if I ever went to a psychiatrist I would tell them things on a needs to know basis to get correct medication. They are likely to jump the gun as they tend to rush you and often hardly spend any time in apts and are all about facts, numbers, charts, etc.. However, a T is wayyyy different- for instance I have told mine many times oh sometimes I wish I could just die and she always asks follow up questions or just by our conversation can gather I'm not suicidal... T are a lot more relationship based and empathetic. Psychiatrists def. serve their purpose for prescribing medications but, I wouldn't say figure of speeches like that to a psychiatrist because, you never know when you're going to get a whackadoo like yours! I'm so sorry he did that, I hope youre ok now! I can feel your pain and I would be completely traumatized if I ever went through this as well!

 

[Deleted member 42783]

I don't believe the psych was working at the hospital but he did put that I be taken to a specific hospital.

Probably because he had privileges there.

The one male nurse I had on the floor was not nice at all. He kept telling me well if you were pink slipped then you must have a reason to be here. Then he said to me didn't you say you wanted to hurt your children and yourself. I said NO. The ambulance let me see the pink slip and the doc from what we could make out (his handwriting was bad) put that he thought I was at risk to hurting myself and my children.

All the nurse had to go on was the paperwork and notes you came in with. If the doctor wrote that on your petition then that is what the staff will believe.

to be told by a nurse that it will take me longer to go home if I don't take the meds is just wrong!

Actually, it was the right thing to do and the truth. Nurses are required to document patient medication compliance. You can refuse meds or take them, either way we have to document it. The doctor reads the notes and then determines if he needs to petition you before a judge to keep you longer and to have your right to refuse taken away. So, when a nurse tells you that taking the meds will get you out of here sooner, they aren't lying or threatening you. They are trying to help. I hate telling my patients this but it's the truth. It may well be that your nurse was an ass but he did the right thing there.

The fact the P did not investigate anything. Did not clarify what you said. Does not seem to have an understanding of how anxious/depressed people communicate. . . blows me away. The man is incompetent. Then again, I have met several doctors who have no business practicing.

He either misunderstood you and thought you were an immediate risk to yourself and children or he freaked that you might be a risk and feared repercussions coming back on him and so lied on the form. This is why the current system is so scary and needs to change. One person should not have that much power over a vulnerable patient.

 

[Deleted member 42783]

AND the icing on the cake....the release paperwork says I was there for major depression NOS

f*cking awesome. Have you ever been diagnosed with major depression before? If it's not on paperwork anywhere and you never specified on the forms you filled out that you were suffering from depression, his deception may be to your advantage. He misdiagnosed you and had you wrongfully imprisoned due to that diagnosis.

 

[BpinkJ]

Oh and I also want to add... I was made to sign a form so I could move to the better side of the floor. The paper then said I was volunteering to admit myself at that point. I was told if I signed that I could go home sooner. If I didn't sign it I had to stay on the scary side for the reminder of the 72 hours and that the weekend hours would not count. I signed the paper and then still wasn't moved to the better side until the following day at almost bed time. I saw the head of psych that same night and he was mad and said you should have been moved over here last night or early this morning at the latest. I told him I guess my nurse was busy this is the same male nurse with all the comments. I woke up this morning and then was told I would be released after 5pm. The male nurse I had was a nightmare. If I said anything like I didn't belong on the scary side...he would say things like that isn't nice what you are saying about these people and since you are here you are saying it about your self too. I just kept telling him I didn't belong there that I hadn't fully fallen off my rocker. I know that sounds bad but I didn't know how else to describe it to him.

f*cking awesome. Have you ever been diagnosed with major depression before? If it's not on paperwork...

Not to my knowledge EVER! My current T has me diagnosed with PTSD and panic disorder only.

 

[BpinkJ]

I have never taken daily meds just as needed meds like klonipin and Vistral. They now have me on

Clonazepam (klonipin) 0.5 mg as needed
Quetiapine 100mg at bedtime
Vistrial 25mg at bedtime
Duloxetine 60mg take in morning