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I wanted to share this i am to ashamed.I don’t think I can discuss this verbally with anyone.It was really hard for me to write this.I just feel humiliated.I feel just awful.I’m dying of shame, humiliation and embarassment. I am feeling really horrible.Ok this is going to be a long post..I am a 41year old woman what is wrong with me?I feel like an absolute useless, worthless, colossal failure. I am feeling so sad. I am truly lost.I can’t believe I am posting something so personal as I am a very private person, but this is so upsetting to me I don’t think I can discuss this verbally with anyone without bursting into tears.
I am 5ft10 foot tall and being well endowed well built and curvy always on high heels makes me HUGE!
The other day I was in a mall with my daughter and this little boy pointed at me and said something like: “Gush mom, look at her, she is giant!!!”.I am a 41year old 5ft10 tall heterosexual curvy hourgllass shaped attractive brunette.I I like dressing well, and looking presentable. I don’t dress slutty at all. My boobs are 32 f bra size though and I do have a big butt. My hourglass shape is unique and i am tall, and I appreciate that.If you are curvy, tall and busty, many clothes tend to look sexier on you than on a thin person. So things that fit properly that are relatively conservative can be suddenly too revealing and sexy when you put it on. This happens to me a lot.I wear almost always my satin and silk blouses fully buttoned to the top combined with a satin skirt or satin pants. I prefer wearing satin pants and a little shorter satin skirts, always above knees, sometimes even quite much, but not any miniskirts anyway. I am always on high heels and full make up on.I am always in tight form fitting satin and silk clothes. I am a stylish person.I usually stay away from anything too revealing.I am describing myself because i want you to know the complexity of the situation.On Friday at the book club meeting there was this new member.She is a skinny really short like 5ft3 ugly wrinkled face thin lips creepy green eyes grayhaired Justin Bieber haircut masculine woman in her late 50s.She approached me and introduced herself.She said that she is new in the neighborhood.I was wearing my pink satin short sleeve bow blouse my black satin pencil skirt and my pink 6inch high heels shoes.Than she said that she likes to caress satin fabric and that silk and satin is so smooth to the touch when rubbing.Than she started rubbing my back with her right hand while talking to me about the book.Than i sat on the chair the meeting started and she sat on the chair behind me and began rubbing my back. I felt awkward.She then began furthering her reach and casually brushed across my rib cage/side boob. I thought it was an accident, then she did it again and left her hand there and leaned in to whisper something about the book.She kept rubbing my back then leaned in and stopped at the same spot and said something else. And that happened a few times.She began fully brushing the sides of my breasts.While she was standing talking about the book her hands were resting on my shoulders.Her hands were practically constantly on me during the meeting.The book meeting ended and while i was talking to other women book club members she was behind me caressing my ass with her right hand.Her car was parked next to mine she was behind me her hand was on my butt while I was walking.Than she hugged me from behind placing her hands on my breasts and cupped my breasts , squeezing gently for like 5 minutes.Than she left.I was just standing and sitting there letting it happen.i wass like frozen to the ground and paralyzed.Suddenly, i was unable to speak coherently.I wass going “ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm” ” errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr rrrrrrr” for ages and ages.I am so embarrassed by the whole thing. I’m embarrassed that this weird short skinny masculine stranger woman was touching me and groping me so intimately in front of 7 other women and I did nothing about it.I am physically stronger than her.I am 5ft10 tall well built well endowed and curvy.She is like 5ft2 tall skinny.I was on 6inch high heels she was in sneakers.Standing next to me she looked like a midget.I am a 41year old woman what is wrong with me. I am a weak spineless person.Why would I scream my head off if a man did it but I can’t verbalize a succinct “NO” to this short skinny mature pervert lesbian.I didn’t say anything or tell her to stop.I can’t talk to my husband about this because he is extremely jealous and possessive.He is going to blame me.It was like i went into ‘freeze’ mode when she started touching me.I just was in shock.What happened I feel has traumatized me so much.Please tell me am I overreacting?I couldn’t talk normal.I couldn’t get words out of my mouth.I was like totally paralyzed while she was touching me and groping me.Mouth was open but no words came out of it.I am so confused about what happened to me!Whether or not it is my fault or not!I feel so ashamed.I can’t report
her to the police because i don’t want my husband to find out about this.He is very jealous and controlling.I feel so foolish and used by this pervert hideous short skinny mature woman.Other 7 women book club members were weirded out but they ignored that and said/did nothing and continued to discuss the book as if nothing was happening.I’m just lost. Should I even be upset?I’m SO embarrassed.I’ve been shamed and humiliated.I can’t relax and its constantly on my mind, I can’t sleep.It is very frustrating.I was totally paralyzed and numb while she was touching me and groping me.I was just sitting and standing there kind of awkwardly.If i meet this pervert woman i am going to put a lot of distance between the two of us.I don’t want to stop going to the book club meetings because of this awful woman.She said that she moved in my neighborhood a month ago.What if i freeze again.She lives just a few streets away.Well, this never happened to me before, until now. I am 41year old woman.It was probably the most humiliating experience of my life. feel completely used and humiliated by this lesbian total stranger.I know this may sound like I’m overreacting, but I genuinely felt violated.I was practically hand raped by this pervert weird short skinny mature ugly total stranger woman.I am dressing like this since i graduated college and got my first office job.It is my whole wardrobe.It is how i like to dress myself and that is my style.I wear high heels every day too.All the time.Well i am considered by myself and others to be extremely elegant and i take great pride in that. Why should i change my dressing style because of this creepy short skinny pervert woman?She has no right to touch me. Most of my outfit are satin pant and skirt suits satin coats and satin and silk blouses.I feel so degraded and humiliated.I feel like i am at the lowest point of my life because of my freeze response to touching and groping by this creepy repulsive short skinny pervert total stranger woman.Thanks for reading and sorry for being such a downer.
I am 5ft10 foot tall and being well endowed well built and curvy always on high heels makes me HUGE!
The other day I was in a mall with my daughter and this little boy pointed at me and said something like: “Gush mom, look at her, she is giant!!!”.I am a 41year old 5ft10 tall heterosexual curvy hourgllass shaped attractive brunette.I I like dressing well, and looking presentable. I don’t dress slutty at all. My boobs are 32 f bra size though and I do have a big butt. My hourglass shape is unique and i am tall, and I appreciate that.If you are curvy, tall and busty, many clothes tend to look sexier on you than on a thin person. So things that fit properly that are relatively conservative can be suddenly too revealing and sexy when you put it on. This happens to me a lot.I wear almost always my satin and silk blouses fully buttoned to the top combined with a satin skirt or satin pants. I prefer wearing satin pants and a little shorter satin skirts, always above knees, sometimes even quite much, but not any miniskirts anyway. I am always on high heels and full make up on.I am always in tight form fitting satin and silk clothes. I am a stylish person.I usually stay away from anything too revealing.I am describing myself because i want you to know the complexity of the situation.On Friday at the book club meeting there was this new member.She is a skinny really short like 5ft3 ugly wrinkled face thin lips creepy green eyes grayhaired Justin Bieber haircut masculine woman in her late 50s.She approached me and introduced herself.She said that she is new in the neighborhood.I was wearing my pink satin short sleeve bow blouse my black satin pencil skirt and my pink 6inch high heels shoes.Than she said that she likes to caress satin fabric and that silk and satin is so smooth to the touch when rubbing.Than she started rubbing my back with her right hand while talking to me about the book.Than i sat on the chair the meeting started and she sat on the chair behind me and began rubbing my back. I felt awkward.She then began furthering her reach and casually brushed across my rib cage/side boob. I thought it was an accident, then she did it again and left her hand there and leaned in to whisper something about the book.She kept rubbing my back then leaned in and stopped at the same spot and said something else. And that happened a few times.She began fully brushing the sides of my breasts.While she was standing talking about the book her hands were resting on my shoulders.Her hands were practically constantly on me during the meeting.The book meeting ended and while i was talking to other women book club members she was behind me caressing my ass with her right hand.Her car was parked next to mine she was behind me her hand was on my butt while I was walking.Than she hugged me from behind placing her hands on my breasts and cupped my breasts , squeezing gently for like 5 minutes.Than she left.I was just standing and sitting there letting it happen.i wass like frozen to the ground and paralyzed.Suddenly, i was unable to speak coherently.I wass going “ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm” ” errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr rrrrrrr” for ages and ages.I am so embarrassed by the whole thing. I’m embarrassed that this weird short skinny masculine stranger woman was touching me and groping me so intimately in front of 7 other women and I did nothing about it.I am physically stronger than her.I am 5ft10 tall well built well endowed and curvy.She is like 5ft2 tall skinny.I was on 6inch high heels she was in sneakers.Standing next to me she looked like a midget.I am a 41year old woman what is wrong with me. I am a weak spineless person.Why would I scream my head off if a man did it but I can’t verbalize a succinct “NO” to this short skinny mature pervert lesbian.I didn’t say anything or tell her to stop.I can’t talk to my husband about this because he is extremely jealous and possessive.He is going to blame me.It was like i went into ‘freeze’ mode when she started touching me.I just was in shock.What happened I feel has traumatized me so much.Please tell me am I overreacting?I couldn’t talk normal.I couldn’t get words out of my mouth.I was like totally paralyzed while she was touching me and groping me.Mouth was open but no words came out of it.I am so confused about what happened to me!Whether or not it is my fault or not!I feel so ashamed.I can’t report
her to the police because i don’t want my husband to find out about this.He is very jealous and controlling.I feel so foolish and used by this pervert hideous short skinny mature woman.Other 7 women book club members were weirded out but they ignored that and said/did nothing and continued to discuss the book as if nothing was happening.I’m just lost. Should I even be upset?I’m SO embarrassed.I’ve been shamed and humiliated.I can’t relax and its constantly on my mind, I can’t sleep.It is very frustrating.I was totally paralyzed and numb while she was touching me and groping me.I was just sitting and standing there kind of awkwardly.If i meet this pervert woman i am going to put a lot of distance between the two of us.I don’t want to stop going to the book club meetings because of this awful woman.She said that she moved in my neighborhood a month ago.What if i freeze again.She lives just a few streets away.Well, this never happened to me before, until now. I am 41year old woman.It was probably the most humiliating experience of my life. feel completely used and humiliated by this lesbian total stranger.I know this may sound like I’m overreacting, but I genuinely felt violated.I was practically hand raped by this pervert weird short skinny mature ugly total stranger woman.I am dressing like this since i graduated college and got my first office job.It is my whole wardrobe.It is how i like to dress myself and that is my style.I wear high heels every day too.All the time.Well i am considered by myself and others to be extremely elegant and i take great pride in that. Why should i change my dressing style because of this creepy short skinny pervert woman?She has no right to touch me. Most of my outfit are satin pant and skirt suits satin coats and satin and silk blouses.I feel so degraded and humiliated.I feel like i am at the lowest point of my life because of my freeze response to touching and groping by this creepy repulsive short skinny pervert total stranger woman.Thanks for reading and sorry for being such a downer.
