Terrible therapy session

[Cyberluddite]

I know how easy it is to get sucked into mind-reading, especially with a therapist, but you really don...

Therapists tend to excel at getting you out of your own head, just enough to help you get into your own mind. Annoying, frustrating, aggravating, but helpful for self-awareness as much as situational awareness. We're not always able to see things as clearly as we should, or would like to, because there's "feeeeel... don't think" -- and then there's the flip side.

 

[Cyberluddite]

So I just saw my T and we talked about all of this. She said that when it comes to OCD like intrusive...

Huge respect, @Scarlet13 . What's helped on my end is self-talk, where I kinda put myself in the position of my T and go down the CBT checklist of questions involved with Wise Mind. It's a way to de-escalate yourself, and worth the effort to practice. Keep up the good work, one day at a time, alright? You totally got this. :headphone:

 

[anonymous]

I'm sorry you were abused by females older than you. My mother sexually abused me from age 4 to about age 8 and you come across absolutely nothing like her, in fact you sound the complete opposite and I can tell you are a very good and loving mother.

 

[Scarlet13]

I'm sorry you were abused by females older than you. My mother sexually abused me from age 4 to about...

Thanks for this!

 

[Scarlet13]

Huge respect, @Scarlet13 . What's helped on my end is self-talk, where I kinda...

I have never heard of this cbt check list for wise mind. I have ways to get into wise mind, to understand wise mind. What is on the check list?

 

[Scarlet13]

Therapists tend to excel at getting you out of your own head, just enough to help you get into you...

Yes, she said to me that in that session, she spent 99 percent of the session telling me I wasn't a child molester and then took one part to hypothetically address the issue, which is only what I focused on. The only reason she had me look at the "what if" of me being a molester is because I kept talking about my intrusive thoughts over and over, so she went hard core. I respect her for it, but it still was rough. I lost 4 days of sleep. The good news is that my sessions with her and this thread combined have succeeded in reducing the thoughts a noticable amount.

 

[Cyberluddite]

I have never heard of this cbt check list for wise mind. I have ways to get into wise mind, to unders...

There is no final, official checklist of questions that help confirm what's real and what's simply your mind playing tricks. But it's logic-based questions (relevant to you) that can help reaffirm the boundaries you set for your Emotional Mind. It literally helps retrain your brain to handle sensory information better, although it takes a bit of work to develop a checklist that works for you.

Some of the checklist that I use:

• do I have any control over what X is doing?
• is whatever X is doing, going to matter 5 minutes from now?
• is the house/car/office in one piece?
• are the dog/family/coworkers okay?

(I know, I know, a bit odd but I've been through some really violent stuff because of the codependency issues caused by child abuse... that's partly how I ended up getting trafficked. ugh... like I said, no official checklist, just develop one that's relevant to your situation.)

Hope this helps, but watching motivational speech videos on YouTube gives you a lot of material to draw from.

 

[Stephernovas]

I'm reading older posts, but this is totally a normal therapy response. Hopefully you were able to stop and look at yourself passionately defending why you would not do it. That alone is the goal. Her attempt sounded like she was trying to demystify the anxiety in your intrusive thought, and it worked. The only thing you need to do now, is see it. Instead you were more worried about how others would see you, and catastropized everything. As someone said above, it's a total work in progress. Good luck!