My therapist is a sociopath and he doesn't help me

[Deleted member 45588]

@Abstract
Thank-you so much for all your kindness. I will see a GP and ask for a mental health assessment and see where it gets me? I'll also mention the trauma rather than PTSD, I think it's definitely up to a professional rather than me to diagnose, but you're right I have been struggling for years on end before the trauma so I always suspected it was another illness.

I also hope that my ASD diagnosis will change because I don't feel at all that explains me.

 

[Stephernovas]

@Abstract

I kind of feel familiar to the symptoms of BPD, which might make a lot...

I’ve worked with some BPD clients and I’d lean more towards this, but as someone else just stated we can not diagnose you or help you as we are not psychologists or an assessment facility. It’s a forum for individuals formally DIAGNOSED with PTSD.

 

[Deleted member 45588]

@Stephernovas

I agree with you.

 

[Fadeaway]

So, this sexual assault, was he standing bent over over or kneeling on the ground. could you describe the type of chair in more detail? height? Connected to a desk?

 

[Deleted member 45588]

So, this sexual assault, was he standing bent over over or kneeling on the ground. could you describe the type of chair in more detail? height? Connected to a desk?

Standing bent over. Not connected to a desk. Tall enough for me to feel his private parts on me. I felt everything and it was just... yuck. The chair as far as I remember was one of those ones that swirl and it had a gap where the back connects with the seat.

 

[Suzetig]

I highly doubt you actually want to be sexually assaulted. I think sexual assault is much less compared to rape, torture and the other things you mentioned and I do not wish to compare myself to that but in my opinion in can cause PTSD... just milder I guess?

I've been sexually assaulted, or did you miss that part. I've also been raped, groomed and sexually exploited. I'll take sexual assault of the type you describe over what happened to me without hesitation.

 

[Deleted member 45588]

I've been sexually assaulted, or did you miss that part. I've also been raped, groomed and sexually exploited. I'll take sexual assault of the type you describe over what happened to me without hesitation.

I am so sorry this happened to you, it's awful and not in any way you deserved this. But the truth is anyone would pick neither, not that they are the same, but sexual assault is still terrible enough.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Standing bent over. Not connected to a desk. Tall enough for me to feel his private parts on me.

You stated before that it was through a hole in the chair. That would mean he was backwards in the chair and would have to be be very large for you to feel "everything" through the chair, the clothes, etc. I have a ton more to say but I'm at work and wanted to say this is the part I don't get. I have pictured every chair imaginable and cannot see how this is even physically possible.

 

[Deleted member 45588]

You stated before that it was through a hole in the chair. That would mean he was backwards in the chair and would have to be be very large for you to feel "everything" through the chair, the clothes, etc. I have a ton more to say but I'm at work and wanted to say this is the part I don't get. I have pictured every chair imaginable and cannot see how this is even physically possible.

It is physically possible, he definitely did it to me. I think the chair was like this http://molotilo.com/wp-content/uploads/2016/07/office-desk-chairs.jpg but the back connected to the seat differently? That thing connecting the chair in the middle in the picture wasn't there I guess? I don't know what you mean by backwards in the chair but he leaned over me.

He wasn't 'bent over' btw like they asked he was leaning not bent in any way just to clarify (I don't know how to edit posts).

 

[joeylittle]

I definitely don't wanna be diagnosed with NPD or anything like that though,

Diagnosis isn’t something we pick and choose. Sounds like you are shopping.

I don’t think this forum can support the issues you are dealing with at this time. You’ve gotten lots of useful advice in this thread, and I hope you can follow up on some of it.