Feeling raw

[Suzetig]

I’ve cone across that theory, and I can see it’s point if for example someone has had multiple traumas - the theory is that one trauma can be processed in a way that they represent the whole of their traumatic experience. I’ve also come across solutions focussed therapy, which is very future focussed but I don’t think it works well for trauma.

Actually speaking about the trauma stuff isn’t too hard now - there’s very little I’ve not shared. It’s understanding the impact on me, talking about my self concept etc and trying to challenge and change that which is proving difficult. I know part of the struggle just comes with the territory given the depth of work but it’s very hard going.

We’re working on intimacy, vulnerability and how I do (or more accurately Dont) value myself - my T knows me very well and is pushing quite hard, which is honestly fine, it’s how we’ve always worked - but it’s very painful stuff.

 

[blackemerald1]

t’s understanding the impact on me, talking about my self concept etc and trying to challenge

I'm finding this a problem too.

Sometimes I think there is a nexus btwn trauma and how it has continued forward in me. Other times I think well maybe I was always going to be this way or a mixture of both.

Sometimes I just want to accept I am this way and it will not get any better so do the best with what it is.

Other times I think oh no. It's got to work out better than how I am right now.

So I oscillate btwn these areas.