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My T is a superstar, she knew I was struggling at the end of the session but she’ll always leave it to me to ask for support if I need it. And we’ve been round this block a few times now.
Funny, I expect him to deny it, say I consented, he was misunderstood etc though I don’t doubt him actually doing that would floor me too. I’d be more shocked if he said he’d done it. I don’t think I need to know why so much as accept that he knew what he was doing - I make all the excuses in the world for him because it means it was a “bad relationship” rather than being abusive if you know what I mean.
It’s been a long time since I’ve not been able to just pack up and go again after session but in hindsight this has been on the cards for a while, I’ve had more and more of a therapy hangover the last few sessions. My T knows it’s hellish for me and is great at working at just the right pace etc, this was always going to be hard to face though.
Funny, I expect him to deny it, say I consented, he was misunderstood etc though I don’t doubt him actually doing that would floor me too. I’d be more shocked if he said he’d done it. I don’t think I need to know why so much as accept that he knew what he was doing - I make all the excuses in the world for him because it means it was a “bad relationship” rather than being abusive if you know what I mean.
It’s been a long time since I’ve not been able to just pack up and go again after session but in hindsight this has been on the cards for a while, I’ve had more and more of a therapy hangover the last few sessions. My T knows it’s hellish for me and is great at working at just the right pace etc, this was always going to be hard to face though.