What usually happens with many therapists is they don't want to read anything, and proceed with you "dry" in session. I provided this therapist, with a 33 page write-up of my abuse history, and decades worth of S/I related hospitalizations records, as well as some other documents. So she could really understand what was "under the hood" to coin the phrase. She took the time to read it all (hundreds of pages). And I know she has taken a real internal understanding of my thought processes and where they come from, I know this because in session she pointed out the relationship to my past and my hyper-vigilance to what I was dealing with. To me this is special. I have never had anyone take that much interest to invest the time to read voluminous records. We have a no secrets relationship (so I won't be afraid to say things for fear of what might happen), we agreed if I was that open then we would address such things together when they come (even if that means inpatient), at least I would have choices and not forced. Today I established a similar open relationship on the same grounds. I even told him something that initially "do I have a safety problem that needs addressing". So both are working with me in a way where we all 3 are working together on the same page. I am very happy about that.
It is being tested right now, because this afternoon I got in the mail something that may very well bring my current place in life to a halt and leave me homeless again. Following the safety plan we put together. And will be trying to resolve this if possible from her office in session on Tuesday, I could do it earlier but if I do it in session if it does not go well, she will not want to let me leave her office as it will meet the criteria that has always ended up with me in hospital or php. Will see how it goes on Tuesday.
