Suicidal

[aedgerle]

So yesterday I met with my therapist and she asked what I was doing this summer. I told her about my vacations and she asked if I would be doing anything else. Im not. I am going to stay at home doing nothing because I have no friends and no life. Last year I went to a outpatient program. I still have suicidal thoughts a-lot and panic attacks and I told her that me just being alone and isolating myself may cause me to have more suicidal thoughts. I told her that I am going to look up some outpatient facilities so I can go there to get more help. She said that she agreed and that she didn't think that I needed to go into a residential facility. But the thing is, my panic attacks come out of nowhere and I don't know how to cope with them and I am afraid that 1 day I may have really bad sucidal thoughts and I may end up doing something to try to end my life and go to the hospital. So basically I think that I am a threat to my self and that a residential treatment center might be best for me. And if I really am being honest, for the past couple of weeks I have thought about overdosing this summer just to end my life. I AM A THREAT TO MYSELF but my therapist doesn't see that. What do I do? Please leave me a reply on what I should do.

 

[ILoveLife]

Talk to her again, explain that you feel this way.
I'm sorry you're struggling.

 

[aedgerle]

Talk to her again, explain that you feel this way.
I'm sorry you're struggling.

thanks.

 

[digger]

And if I really am being honest, for the past couple of weeks I have thought about overdosing this summer just to end my life

You need to be this honest with your therapist. It sounds like she was supporting your proactive decision to look at outpatient programs - if you don't let her know that you actually think you need a higher level of care than that, in light of you looking like you are taking positive steps to counter your suicidal thoughts, it's going to be hard for her to pick that up.

 

[Esterio]

Yes I think I would talk to her again. Some times you need to really tell them how you are feeling and what you are go through. It can be difficult to get into care.
Peace be safe
Esterio