Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

Depending on how much you drank and ate around that time, it is not at all unusual for me (and I'm to...

Hm, that would make sense. I drank three drinks, none too high in alcohol content? Well, no, taquilla sunrises don’t care how much juice I added after the bartender made it, does it? :P And champagne is champagne. Thank you for the support

@Sietz Yes, I feel a bit better after sleeping. I took something to increase sleep and that helped. Not perfectly back to normal yet, but we’re getting there :) Thank you

 

[somerandomguy]

I'm sooooo glad you're feeling better!

 

[littleoc]

glad you're feeling better!

Thank you :)

 

[mumstheword]

What a hectic week you've had! How is your digestive system going now?
You've had a lot of sensory stimulation, our brains get overloaded easier than others, I think you've coped admirably.
Have you tried probiotics for your tummy issues? Cider vinegar in water and ginger can help with tummy probs.
Wishing you well lovely littleoc.:hug:

 

[littleoc]

Wishing you well lovely littleoc.:hug:

Thank you, I appreciate that :)

What a hectic week you've had!

No kidding, and it’s not done yet.

How is your digestive system going now?

It got worse.. and I’m not sure why. I have a messed up pelvic floor muscle (no surprise there) but that can’t make me not be able to eat. So... I dunno.




Something went extremely wrong about two hours ago and I couldn’t handle it, but my solution is to sleep in the common room because the proctor doesn’t think it’s an emergency, so that’s nice.

 

[littleoc]

PTSD sleeping in a public common room. Should be good.

Not sure what to do with service dog. Didn’t want to make her sleep in her vest. Sigh.

I am very upset. I hate this dorm.

 

[littleoc]

Being a human is awful.

You have to eat to live (even if it hurts), and everything is stress.

But clearly I’m in a mood, because usually I don’t think this way.

Trying to think of something positive. Might take a bit. I can do it though, if I’m patient.

Here we go... I have food. The common room has air conditioner. My mom had visited so I have blankets to cover the weird smelling couch. There were two couches, so service dog gets one. I had a friend here who gave me one of his blankets. And socialized with me for a bit. Helped me talking about my twin’s sudden fiancé.

Guys watching sports are cheering. Usually I would find that hilarious/adorable human tricks.i think I still do. Minus my headache they couldn’t possibly know about.

 

[littleoc]

Another positive: I still have access to running water and a shower, even if it doesn’t drain

 

[littleoc]

Several people stopped by to ask how I’m doing. I wonder if something happened

 

[somerandomguy]

I'm sorry things are rough right now. Hopefully you'll be able to get it straightened out tomorrow?
:hug:

 

[littleoc]

I'm sorry things are rough right now. Hopefully you'll be able to get it straightened out tomorrow...

Hopefully. I will be forever scared of using too many electronics at once around here, but hopefully someone fixes it soon. That would be great.

Another positive: the shit dorms may be shit, but the good dorm’s lighting has consistently triggered migraines every single time I go in, so at least I don’t live somewhere where the lights hurt me. Because I still have that visual processessing disorder from the head injuries so I can’t just turn them off, lol

Also also, my dorm isn’t about to have 200 tennis camp children moving in, so that’s nice

 

[littleoc]

Okay, I think I’m feeling a little better. It’ll be nicer when I have a private room again.

I’m ashamed that I can’t be positive all the time. I’m doing my best, though.

It is hard to like a person who isn’t positive. I feel weird saying that?

I rescued someone right before the vacation to home and the wedding. After that it felt like everything hit the fan. I haven’t quite recovered. Didn’t even want to talk about it here... at least, I don’t think I did?

But anyway, he is okay now. He was in the common room chatting casually with me, not fearing for his life, not saying he didn’t want to get me involved.

And on top of that, a guy I helped in 2013 (was that really five years ago?) sent me a message asking me if I would want to be an official witness in what I saw and heard those nights. I told him how brave he is. I’ll talk about it later I guess. I told him to talk to his lawyer about it. Dunno if it would be wise to have me.

This has brought up more death flashbacks which I think was making all this unexpected transition worse. Also the effects of alcohol? I’m never drinking again.. and I was careful, too. Drank a ton of water, had a lot to eat (which made me sick...)

Keep seeing her face, after a car hit her. She wasn’t even conscious. But I don’t know why it’s bothering me, because she lived. And I can’t recognize faces, so... not sure what my brain thinks it’s seeing?

But seeing what other people are doing around this site helped me. I like the people here. Not happy for what they’re going through, but seeing all the work and effort gives me hope and makes me feel calmer.