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The "I Need A Hug" Thread

Really struggling today and could use some heart hugs, please...and so could my hubby. We leave at oh my god o'clock in the morning to go to the hospital in another town for him to have a heart cath. procedure to help better determine what to do to fix the hole in his heart.

I can't even read about stuff like that without feeling like I'm going to faint. My overactive what-ifness brain can't seem to settle down, which can kick my heart issues into gear while under stress....so I'm trying harder than usual to keep my shit together.

I keep reminding myself these are the folks who really know their shit and their only goal is to help make him feel better and stronger. He's not indicating he's worried one single bit, as per usual. I guess I worry enough for both of us.

I'm also dreading the waiting room scene where folks will be marinating in all the smells that make me sick, meaning there will likely be no comfort zone to wait in without having a raw nose, sore throat, headache, and tasting each scent for days after we leave. A no win situation that simply can't be avoided, even with my mask. I already called ahead and was advised there is no "safe space" that's fragrance free to wait in. Grrrrrrr....

Mom isn't feeling well again, but not to the degree she was before, thank goodness, and my sister's car is broken down, meaning she can't get over to be with her....and we'll be gone all day and possibly overnight, so we won't be able to provide any support there, either. Dammit.

I know it could always be so much worse, but it damn sure feels like it could be a lot better, too, or at least not continually reaching avalanche status so that it all hits at once.

Here's hoping for competence and compassion in all the arenas that everyone must deal with. Most especially the inner one.

Thanks for your time and for the hugs from afar. I appreciate each and every one of you and your presence in my days. I'll miss ya'll tomorrow, but hope to return swiftly with some good news and a healthier outlook for my hubby.
 

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