Christmas

[Mach123]

Bjs was mobbed. It was a holiday thing though. We were very patient. I am not too anywhere till next week and that's gonna b on half steam forget it I'm on vacation. Doughnuts and hot chocolate for breakfast. It's totally merry Christmas party time. My buddy is having 20 people at his house Christmas Eve. My wife said we don't know 20 people. I wouldn't trade places though.

I got some strings for the glasses. Eyeglass holder straps. I was thinking I was doing so well and now they are gone, didn't make it 24 hours. They'll turn up. I have to do something. I can't spend all that time looking for them anymore plus I want to get the Prescrition ones out of pocket, but I won't unless I can hold onto them for more than a week.

 

[Mach123]

I ate all day it was so nice. I'm going to eat now right through New Years and have a blast. I have to so I can put up with all of them. I don't want to see anyone or hear about their BS. I want it nice and quiet. The tree is not done but it's beautiful. Everything is as done as we can get it.

I need onions so I have to go to the supermarket. I'm tempted to drive the extra time to get what I always do. I have been shopping in the same place for 20 years. I wish I could just go in another storm and get something a little different. It's not that easy.

The place is full of ice cream and pies. It's a shame we don't get that much company, we'll have to eat it all. : )

 

[Mach123]

Bjs was mobbed. It was a holiday thing though. We were very patient. I am not too anywhere till next week and that's gonna b on half steam forget it I'm on vacation. Doughnuts and hot chocolate for breakfast. It's totally merry Christmas party time. My buddy is having 20 people at his house Christmas Eve. My wife said we don't know 20 people. I wouldn't trade places though.

I got some strings for the glasses. Eyeglass holder straps. I was thinking I was doing so well and now they are gone, didn't make it 24 hours. They'll turn up. I have to do something. I can't spend all that time looking for them anymore plus I want to get the Prescrition ones out of pocket, but I won't unless I can hold onto them for more than a week.

My son picked them up outside and said "I thought the point of the straps was to prevent this from happening."

 

[blackemerald1]

"I thought the point of the straps was to prevent this from happening."

That's a good point lol

 

[Mach123]

I went outside and asked the dog next door if he was all alone? He was obviously barking because he wanted someones attention. (to be let in the house.) Well the walls are so fuking thin he might as well be in the living room with me. I'm gonna b a good neighbor I'm not saying that, I just went out to see what the dog wanted. My wife came bombing out behind me and was like MACH? She used her cease and desist voice. So anyway, I don't think it'll be a thing and like I said I'm gonna b all polite and the best neighbor but if I have to listen to the dog barking for about a half an hour I'm gonna go see what he wants. It started barking it's head off when it saw me, my wife called me in and I guess they let the dog in because that was it lol.

They are very nice with a young family, 2 kids I think and the inlaws living with them right now and they both work so I'm on their side believe me even when the kid starts bouncing the basketball in the driveway between out houses which would make the record player skip if we had record players anymore.

Still though it's way better than the last neighborhood. I drive by there quite often to see what they did to the place we used to live and there is a store on the end of that street. When we first moved in there it was really rough and I was in really bad shape. We got through it though. I am determined to have a better experience here and so far all is well, I didn't mind going out to check on the dog though, I mean c'mon. Sunday morning? I mean, it's never ok for the dog to be barking but it happens sometimes. It's reciprocal though believe me. If we act up and are bothering them I want them to tell me and we will do whatever to accommodate them.

 

[Mach123]

My wife is going to our stepsons'. It would be so easy for me to tell you that whole thing and be miserable. I was miserable when I woke up this morning. But I won't and I'm not. I wish I had said "It's ok to be miserable" in this thread. Misery gets so much more traffic.

I was really miserable about Auntie coming over whom I have been trying to get rid of for years. She wrote her kids out of her will and put my wife in instead. She feels like she owns us now. She's only my age and I'm sure she'll change it back and put her kids back in it (especially after she tells them) It's all a big scam lol. I really don't want anything to do with any of these people. My wife said I isolate her. From what? I think actually it was she that isolated me always? I doubt we will ever figure it all out.

 

[Mach123]

Boy I was miserable this morning. I think I'm getting a little better. Just was really feeling ugly and wanting to say something, anything I guess to get it out somehow. I was ok I'm pretty sure with my wife. She's so good. : )

 

[Mach123]

Christmas Eve day I'm pretty good. We made love yesterday and I couldn't get my orgasm. She asked me about it later which was so sweet I actually cried. She said it was selfish and if I didn't have an orgasm I'd be pestering her and she just wasn't going to have time for me. I always cry when she's kind with me like that. Nobody believes me when I explain how abusive this Cretean (my wife) is and always has been. That's because you're not a man if you say a woman is abusive. Real men just laugh at that and go watch football and drink beer.

She is though and she always was and I played a part in that and I know it and things are somewhat better now and that's what I'm interested in. I'm interested in what works.
I am calling the doctor today (pdoc) and saying I think there are no female urologists at least not ones who see men? That's another giant fuk up but I just don't know what to do about it so I'm gonna call her office and say I'm doing nothing. Let them deal with it. They can't do anything right and they are a nightmare to deal with. I really love my doctor and we have been at that practice over 20 years. They always have been a problem. I tried going somewhere else awhile because of an insurance issue I had. It was worse.

I have to return a trash can my wife bought it's gonna be a big fight. She has no business buying trash cans she doesn't deal with the trash. It's one of those little things she does. I just can't live with it this time. I took one of her chairs downstairs. Similar situation. I never used to do stuff like that. I was always afraid to provoke open hostilities. Now I have to. She would have it so you couldn't walk around in here if I let her.

I have to wrap the gifts I bought, return the trash can and try and prepare mentally for Auntie coming to visit. We have a soundproofing issue with the neighbors. IDK if we can do anything or not. Put up a fence maybe? They are nice people it's just how these houses are. Life at the beach. We'll c. Life's good. Fuk it.

Merry Christmas a million times Merry Christmas I'm so happy I'm not depressed or on pills. Happy hugs ?. ? I don't even know how to do it I'm such a Scrooge!

 

[Mach123]

I text the therapist yesterday she text me back and said "happy Christmas" which made me feel great. I came across the Feldenkrais method. It is related to my therapy. She must've told me that because the name jumped out at me. Paul Linden is one of my therapists mentors and his work is based in Feldenkrais. I went to an all day bodywork thing with both my wife my therapist and Paul. Something to look into.

 

[Mach123]

Aunties on the horn with my wife I just heard "mach123 is not talking to me IDK why". Which is a total lie so typical of her. It's not important she only mentioned it because she needs something done. (She needs a servant in other words). They all are the same. Everyone I get involved with seems always to think I'm the slave. I say "I'm not the Slave" and everyone treats me like I'm getting uppity. Get yourselves another slave, slave drivers.

That's the pattern and that's being stuck but at least I don't feel guilty about it anymore. My friend is an alpha male. I love him because I call him and he says "don't be a metero sexual and worry about if people like u, fuk them." He was good at that because he's a fighter and the men are always afraid of him. So he tells everyone, "fuk you."

Winners, it's me or you, us or them. Take no prisoners. This is how my wife operates. She hides it but underneath she's a killer and she makes no bones about it. I'm the only one who sees that. My kids knew it. They weren't afraid of me but they were afraid of her.

It's funny to have always had people like this to deal with and not be like them.

So Auntie will text me again now and try and get me to do her slave work under the guise of helping her, but she can fuk off. She doesn't need my help. She got rid of her husband, and I have a wife of my own.

One "hunnie do" list is enough and I get love for that one. What's she gonna pay me with? Lol.

 

[blackemerald1]

@Mach123 - :hilarious: - You know this would make a good mini series don't you?

 

[Mach123]

@Mach123 - :hilarious: - You know this would make a good mini series don't you?

Thanks you are nice to say something.