Advice for the first anniversary of my suicide attempt

[bellbird]

Thank you so much @berlinda ?? :hug:

 

[Freida]

Im in!

 

[bellbird]

Im in!

Yay! ??

 

[ms spock]

For those that would like to "join in" the celebrations, and yes I am already seeing that day in a much more positive light, I would love it if you would do things on that day that make you happy.
• Cook a meal that you love; that's your favourite food, or that brings up memories of happy times, or that makes you feel good.
• If there's someone you haven't told in a while that you love them (family, friend, pet, loved one passed), make a point to tell them on that day.
• Maybe there's an album you haven't listened to in a long time that you really like, or your favourite movie you feel like rewatching.
That would be the absolute best "gift" for this celebration: to spread some joy to each of our pockets of the world.

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I will do one of these things!

 

[bellbird]

I will do one of these things.

Wonderful, thank you @Spotted Pardalote :hug:

 

[Deanna]

relationship, a neurological disorder, PTSD, GAD, MDD, SH, SI, bulimia and anorexia to be able to walk across that stage

Curious.. What is SH,SI,GAD, MDD?

 

[bellbird]

Curious.. What is SH,SI,GAD, MDD?

Self harm, suicidal ideation (can also mean suicidal intent), generalised anxiety disorder, major depressive disorder.

 

[Deanna]

Self harm, suicidal ideation (can also mean suicidal intent), generalised anxiety disorder, major depressive disorder.

Thanks. By the way.. Glad you're still around!?

 

[bellbird]

Thanks. By the way.. Glad you're still around!?

Thank you @Deanna's Gap :hug:

 

[Freemartin]

Yay, seems that we have good plans in place already.

So, Tues 21 May. The day will see me traveling by train to another city and staying the night at my friends’. (The next day I’ll be flying to Edinburgh!!!)

I think I’ll dedicate the time on train to listening to good music and watching some film I’d really like to see. Then, when I see my friends, I’ll let them know they really mean a lot to me. I guess we can also make dinner together. We have some old all-time favourites we often make.

And as for the butterflies... I’ll come up with something. :D ?

Oh, and maybe you can start making those flipcards. You can share them with us if you want. We could help you come up with things.

 

[shatter eyes]

Bellbird

I enjoy your company and we frequent common threads too.
I just had my first anniversary few months ago around new years. Approaching it was shit scared and worried while mixed and confused because i do want to live. The idea of failing also warned me my brain may say try again.

I created a similar post asking others here. It is a new chapter. I had to reframe the situation. I was told to celebrate life and worked closely with my T and others to make a safety plan.

Prior to anni.
I stayed low stimulation.
Asked for a safety person in advance to check in and hang out with if needed.
I set myself up with support and reviewed my posts here which showed me how far i have came.

I look back and believe the angered identity died that day and i began to feel less hateful towards the person that caused my brain/spine injuries changing my life forever. Acceptance and forgiveness came to me for him and myself. Idiot ran a redlight speeding walked away with broken finger.

The new chapter allowed me to see how others can lose their lives so easily because of despair to be free, to have control of life back, to end the thoughts and pain. I grew in compassion to feel others and know how fragile life can be when anxiety dyregulates our systems. Something in me died making room for me to grow within.

I am glad you FAILED. I send you LOL... lots of love. Death was not meant to be because we are needed to be alive.

 

[shatter eyes]

Here is my post with others shsring about their anniversaries
Anniversary of failed attempt