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would you rather die today ...or RELIVE EVERYTHING from your whole life over again from the day you were born?

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hope4us

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if you had to choose one of these options, what would you choose?

A. you die today,

OR

B. you start from the day you were born again and relive your whole life again, BUT... you CANNOT change anything about it. you will relive everyday the EXACT SAME WAY AS BEFORE. Experiencing everything all over again, exactly how it was the first time.
 
Relive. No hesitation. ;)

I'll get to see (and hold, and hug, and kiss, and run after and with) everyone I love(d) and could Proper Goddamn Trust.

.... and when the shit hits again, I mighta discover new lessons. Never the same river. The river may be the same, but teaches different things.
 
This is pretty telling for me, because had you asked this question 4 months ago, I'd have said Die Today, without hesitation.

But my answer now is Relive, with the same amount of certainty.

So I guess I get to take two lessons away:

1. I have enough hope for my future that I would rather live through all of my "bad" experiences so far again than forgo experiencing what my future holds.

2. The extent of change in perspective that can happen in only 100 days.

Cheers.
 
You say you can't change anything about it, and that to me means that we cant change our perspective or what we have learned during this life time. I sure would respond differently to many things that happened, but if it must be the same, then I guess I cant. Sorry, I dont want to play this game...lol
 
I'm not sure I would be able to do that to myself. It wasn't all bad, but lot's was very, very hard, and painful. Plus I have a bit of a phobic type thing about things repeating over and over, so that concept is a bit hellish to me.

Definitely NOT die though. I haven't come through all that shit to get to where I am now, to lose it all now.

I've worked hard, on myself, to get to where I am now. Literally lots of blood, sweat and tears, LOTS.

I have a large brood of children, all of which are in a good place, where I am concerned, now.

I have a loving partner, now.

So no. I don't want to die, nor do I want to go through all that hellish crap, even though there were some beautiful peaks amongst the valleys and out-to-sea-ness and Hades depths of it all.

I love being a mum, but it was made SO HARD, by my age, C-ptsd, and Aspergers, and by my vulnerable narcissistic training/wounding, by my vulnerable narcissistic ma and my grandiose narcissistic dad-of-my-kid's.

To do it over again? Would be cruelty that I truly DO NOT deserve.
 
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