I want to start with if you feel endanger to yourself or anyone else please seek medical help through a doctor or emergency assistance.
Now I wanna tell you I can absolutely relate.I deal with the constant fear I question whether people are even actually real or am I just dreaming.
Recently I've gotten to the point where I just feel dead and question is life and death even real.
I feel completely gone.I believe that's why I have this odd thought that death nor life are real.im in constant dream state that makes everything feel unreal.
I may not have alot of advice but I do understand how you feel.Its a constant battle inside yourself.
I get what you mean by the sleep thing so many people have told me to get on a sleeping schedule.Its way more difficult than people realise.A few days ago I went to sleep at 8 pm due to being exhausted I woke up early the next day and thought okay I'm gonna stay up all day and I'll be on the way to getting on some type of schedule.well me dpdr got the best of me and I stayed up for two days straight slept for 4 hours after the two days being awake and once again I'm just up.im not even getting tired anymore.
My senses of time and life are gone.i don't ever feel hungry,I don't get tired I just seem to crash when my body is done.
What I can tell you though is what I know from personal experience.
1.you are not alone even if reading this feels unreal to you I want to reassure you it's real,you are real,the people and things around you are real I promise.
2.you are not losing it nor will you lose it.take it from me I've been dealing now for a couple months and I've questioned it all literally everyday,and even when I don't believe it I haven't actually lost anything including my mind.
3.what you are feeling is normal we have a natural response in our minds that shuts us down when we've taken in to much stress,fear,trauma whether emotional trauma, or physically trauma.
4.what your feeling is a natural response and can't hurt you no matter what those intrusive thoughts are telling you.
5.you will make it what's happening is like I mentioned I'm 3 your mind and body are acting in a natural way to something or multiple things that have been to much on you mentally, physically or both we have 3 responses or reflexes naturally fight,flight,or freeze.you are stuck on freeze.
Being on freeze in my eyes from dealing with it even right now it's very dreadful it is scary and I just want you to know your not alone.when it first began I did alot of research on my own and I continue to do research.I have found a therapist to help me get through the trauma I have experienced but there is alot I have to do on my own.Something I learned is this was just the end result of alot of past traumas even as a child that I haven't dealt with.
I have flashbacks,I have moments of feeling not here,I question my own existence.Ive had so many people tell me to get over it do this that and the other and sadly I can't gaurentee you that what everyone tells you to do is gonna work including myself because I suffer everyday.
What I can tell you is do your own research on dpdr and PTSD really learn about your mental health and understand what the symptoms are and how they may make you feel miserable but at one point dpdr actually was protecting you and we like others got lucky and got stuck in it.naturally dpdr goes away on its own but when you've dealt with so much mentally and physically whether one or the other or both we get stuck in it due to our minds on constant protect mode.once I learned more about it I've become less scared I have my days believe me but seeing that others experience it and it is a relatable symptom to anxiety and trauma eased my mind.
Yes we are living with it now just like our anxiety or any other mental health issue we have.but it can get better and your not going crazy.
Another thing with research I do recommend you see things that did help other people and start to do things try meditation,try speaking with your doctor,look into therapy,and grounding techniques.everyone is different so I can't tell you what will help you but those are something's you can look into also I know it's difficult but try to relax take time to learn yourself again. I myself journal things I keep a book amd pen by my bed.I write down everything things I've been through,things that made me who I am.my likes and dislikes.I even occasionally write down my fears and why I have them or why they may be irrational so when I have that fear again I can look back at why it's okay to not be scared.
You got this we will get through this it won't be as easy as taking a pill or taking a good nap and we wake up fine again but it will get better.
