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spinningmytires
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I've heard the expression, "gotta jog my brain" in the context of trying to recall...." Interestingly, you define brain jogging as a conscious, purposeful thing you do to kinda shift gears .....your description comes across as a process and not a natural thing everyone does.
I think your brain jogging is just the way you think...... I do have a word I use to describe the "stuckness" felt when I can't recall....I call it "glitching." That's when information feels likes its almost there....but out of reach....and in that moment....I'm glitching.....I don't have control over retrieving info as easily as usual. I do find that maintaining a healthy lifestyle helps tremendously in the "thinking" and "memory retrieval" department.
@spinningmytires As far as dissociation, that's a whole other ball of wax! I'm not in deep thought or really thinking when I'm dissociated...just the opposite.....I'm not connected to my thoughts or the present moment.
Dissociating to me is like melting into the wall.....and poof....I'm gone....it is one step this side of not existing. Now, I do have control over that....if I want to or I can let go...and choose to dissociate-and that has been long time coming when I couldn't choose because I didn't understand it. It takes practice to stay in the moment and stay clear headed, but I think it's becoming a new norm....I think I'm getting there even in T when I talk deep stuff. But when you've spent a lifetime not really being present, switching your brain's gears and staying grounded is work. Dissociating is a very different or separate topic from thinking and recall.......and brain jogging......unless I'm missing your boat.
@TruthSeeker Trying to grasp a better understanding of this 'brain jogging' myself -- Yes, it's an often conscious, purposeful and intentional process and yes, apparently not something that everyone does. But then, they might not be experiencing their mind as suddenly going blank, as I do at times. My aphasia might be part of this problem.
'Stuckness' is a good word for it. Or 'blankness' as for me everything that I'll be processing will suddenly fade away and not be retrievable. This 'going blank' just happens too quickly. This is when I'll apply my brain jog to attempt a new start-up processi. And it's not as if I'll be able to continue from where I left-off. I never get far enough into the process to recall or retrieve. However the initial idea I don't forget. Nor is this sudden 'going blank' caused by a distraction. But rather it's a sudden loss of my ability to process. I'll still be aware of my surroundings. I've experienced my brain as suddenly 'going blank' since childhood. In school I would panic when this happened -- perhaps I was too fearful of making an error.
I stuttered badly until about age 8 with difficulties forming sentences and finding words. At age 35, I was told by a tester that my learning disability was due to a processing problem, likely due to brain damage -- with difficulty forming and processing word and symbol associations -- my input, output and memory had then tested fine.
I'm been wondering if my sudden 'going blank' experiences might be a form of dissociation -- where my brain jogging becomes my attempt to reconnect with this diminished, vanishing processing activity. I recall my dissociation during my brain surgery follow-up testing ...where my thoughts were certainly there and I could have likely processed information easily -- yet I was very much disconnected from my emotions. My separation of thought from my emotions is a huge problem for me.