Hi @Nano welcome to you.
I always had the sense of a fore-shortened future, partly practically (likely) with genetics. However, you actually did the very right thing- because as awful as that was/ is, there is one form of breast cancer that presents exactly that way, is very aggressive and difficult to treat. You received prompt appropriate care, and the best of news.
When I developed ( at least one) lump in my breast and discharge (2 colors, go figure!, one indicates cyst, one cancer) it was about 5 months after my sister had been diagnosed with terminal breast cancer in her 30's (one of many relatives). I figured I was either: a) psychosomatic and it was in my head, because of her diagnosis, and I felt guilty/ badly about it, and told no one btw or b) would find out eventually, and maybe I'd do better or worse without addressing it, if it was cancer?, I would see. That was 26 years ago and I'm still 'here', lol. So I'm pretty sure it likely isn't, and if it is (not likely) I've suffered through no treatments, either.
Needless to say I'm not advocating ignoring it, just keeping your head. I take care of many palliative people, and for the most part it's not so easy to die, and critical illnesses do not normally present as garden variety aches or pains. That being said, some very simply annoying symptoms/ things are hugely helpful to address, because they can catch things when they still can be turned around.
Don't feel badly- I remember a comedian with dark humour saying, "OMG, a lump on this side- quickly check the other side -> = matching lump. 'Great! I have cancer on both sides!!" (Not minimizing your situation, btw, just saying the word should be renamed; and getting to the bottom of what is or isn't there can be helpful. In the most obvious way of accepting the fact that finding out the facts doesn't change them: if something's there, it can be dealt with. If it's a good bill of health, it's a good bill of health. What they say, doesn't change what is. It just clarifies what the next step will be. Which doesn't change you're alive now, this minute, and have been all the years you were sure you likely wouldn't be. That can show you those thoughts weren't accurate, too, no matter how 'certain' they felt It's also likely the anxiety could make you more sick eventually than any illness or outcome you're worried about! ).
I always had the sense of a fore-shortened future, partly practically (likely) with genetics. However, you actually did the very right thing- because as awful as that was/ is, there is one form of breast cancer that presents exactly that way, is very aggressive and difficult to treat. You received prompt appropriate care, and the best of news.
When I developed ( at least one) lump in my breast and discharge (2 colors, go figure!, one indicates cyst, one cancer) it was about 5 months after my sister had been diagnosed with terminal breast cancer in her 30's (one of many relatives). I figured I was either: a) psychosomatic and it was in my head, because of her diagnosis, and I felt guilty/ badly about it, and told no one btw or b) would find out eventually, and maybe I'd do better or worse without addressing it, if it was cancer?, I would see. That was 26 years ago and I'm still 'here', lol. So I'm pretty sure it likely isn't, and if it is (not likely) I've suffered through no treatments, either.
Needless to say I'm not advocating ignoring it, just keeping your head. I take care of many palliative people, and for the most part it's not so easy to die, and critical illnesses do not normally present as garden variety aches or pains. That being said, some very simply annoying symptoms/ things are hugely helpful to address, because they can catch things when they still can be turned around.
Don't feel badly- I remember a comedian with dark humour saying, "OMG, a lump on this side- quickly check the other side -> = matching lump. 'Great! I have cancer on both sides!!" (Not minimizing your situation, btw, just saying the word should be renamed; and getting to the bottom of what is or isn't there can be helpful. In the most obvious way of accepting the fact that finding out the facts doesn't change them: if something's there, it can be dealt with. If it's a good bill of health, it's a good bill of health. What they say, doesn't change what is. It just clarifies what the next step will be. Which doesn't change you're alive now, this minute, and have been all the years you were sure you likely wouldn't be. That can show you those thoughts weren't accurate, too, no matter how 'certain' they felt It's also likely the anxiety could make you more sick eventually than any illness or outcome you're worried about! ).
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