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[Miyu38]

I have always known I hate being in the kitchen with others and that it was a part of my PTSD. I didn't think it was bad but I guess I was avoiding being in there with people. So today I was making a cake for my nephew's birthday party and I have roommates. The owners of the house were home and the workspace is right next to the open kitchen. I was making it and just the fact that they were there was getting to me. I keep it together until I was done went to my room, and broke down. Growing up the kitchen was a horrible place fights broke out and dad did drugs around that area. We weren't able to go to the kitchen unless we want to get hit or worse. Then was staved a lot of the time or was feed scraps like a dog. On the bright side, this was the first time I was able to hear my inner child at all and all I heard was help. I don't want to talk about it too much right now since I'm still upset but wanted to give this form a try. I have been seeing a therapist so to know all the hard work I have been doing is paying off even just a little.

 

[Sideways]

Welcome to the forum. I hope you find this place turns out to be a helpful part of your recovery:)

 

[Dynamic]

Welcome @Miyu38

 

[arfie]

hello miyu. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here.

using my strictly personal herstory as a yardstick, i see breakthrough levels of progress in your nephew's birthday cake. my own recovery is not about rewriting the world to cater to my personal psycho snot knots. it's about learning how to navigate the world on life's own terms. the level of awareness you show in this post is nothing shy of awesome, as is your management of the resulting symptoms. recovery is not about being perfect. it's about working ^it^ out.

 

[Hopeful Despair]

Welcome. My therapist was pushing hard for me to find other support so I came here. I can see with just a few posts that it will be helpful. You did great finishing that cake! As someone recently said to me, be gentle with yourself.

 

[Miyu38]

hello miyu. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here.

using my strictly personal herstory as a yardstick, i see breakthrough levels of progress in your nephew's birthday cake. my own recovery is not about rewriting the world to cater to my personal psycho snot knots. it's about learning how to navigate the world on life's terms. the level of awareness you show in this post is nothing shy of awesome, as is your management of the resulting symptoms. recovery is not about being perfect. it's about working ^it^ out.

Thank you for this cause a lot of the time I put too much pressure on myself to recover fast but like you said it's about working it out.

 

[StillPen]

Welcome to the forum.