Autism/PTSD/Panic Attacks/Social Isolation

[HopeIsLost]

I really genuinely come from a place of care and empathy. I am an autistic person who has seen some really bad things in my life. To the point that it very much makes me look at people and say, “what is wrong with you all?” Because, empathy doesn’t hate and cause harm. So where does this harm come from? Not empathy, but lack of.

I could talk about my laundry list of ways people have abused my autism or have legit ruined my life paths because they destroyed and blackmailed me. Or put me in such a financial bind that I lose everything and depend on people that abuse me more.

I would love to hear, and I’m not talking about people who fake autism, fake ptsd or fake being hurt and make up some fake sob story to get attention because they are psychopaths. I’m not making this post so abusers can pretend and have their time to shine and pretend they are a victim.


This post is for people like me, who have been abused, have autism or ptsd because someone harmed them severely enough that they have panic attacks or life problems because of the suffering. I want to hear your stories. Because it does it get lonely to feel so sad with autism and just want to see people like me that are enraged or sad by how people are treated.

I really would love to hear your stories and thank you for your bravery, because I know it’s very hard to share when people shut you down or call you crazy for being strong and caring. But I admire your ability to care in a world that doesn’t.

 

[Lost in the Woods]

The woman I have been dating has autism and she suggested I look into it. I started reading about it and I was surprised how closely it describes me. I did all the written tests and scored high to very high on all of them. I am currently looking into a full evaluation. I too would very much like to here from people with a full evaluation and diagnosis.

 

[HopeIsLost]

The woman I have been dating has autism and she suggested I look into it. I started reading about it and I was surprised how closely it describes me. I did all the written tests and scored high to very high on all of them. I am currently looking into a full evaluation. I too would very much like to here from people with a full evaluation and diagnosis.

Honestly getting a diagnosis was very helpful to me. I don’t know if you ever feel out of place or like your “different.” But I know this what made me compelled to find out why I’m “different.” And honestly it has shown me that I am just a person with a giant heart and not some strange wierd, freak that society claims because I cry.

 

[Lost in the Woods]

I have always felt out of place, like everyone else got an instruction manual.

 

[HopeIsLost]

I have always felt out of place, like everyone else got an instruction manual.

Honestly I’m sorry you feel lost like that. But you are not lost tbh. Just need to find where you belong within the system. I know sometimes that gets really hard though even for me.

I feel very loving but I feel almost like, there isn’t people that actually match this energy or really feel deeply in tune with me. I really understand the feeling of isolation. And I hope that heals for you as well.

 

[Lost in the Woods]

Thank you. It is hard to tell if it is trauma or autism. Maybe both.

 

[HopeIsLost]

Thank you. It is hard to tell if it is trauma or autism. Maybe both.

Honestly both can sound pretty realistic. Expecislly if you have a lot of pain from someone not saying sorry or stuff like that. I know for me autism makes being hurt people very painful of an experience.

 

[Teasel]

I was diagnosed a few months ago. I know being autistic has made me vulnerable to abuse.
Not got a lot of spoons to say much just now tho
Hi

 

[captain jigglypuff]

My abuser used her power as a caregiver to verbally and emotionally abuse me with some physical abuse and used my autism against me all the time. I was so afraid to show any emotions in front of her because if I cried , she’d say that I was faking it and trying to make her feel bad. But if I didn’t show any signs of emotions then that meant I had no conscience and never feel bad for anything. Even apologizing was a nightmare because if I did apologize then I really didn’t mean it and wasn’t sorry but if I didn’t apologize (especially after doing absolutely nothing wrong or where I needed to do it) then it was a screaming rant about how I never apologized or feel bad for anything. She even once screamed and hit me just for using the term “white lie” and accused me of making the term up because she had never heard it used before (which was weird given she was 43 at the time) and then proceeded to call me a racist for using it. She died in February and I have been slightly happier with my life knowing that I’m now completely free from her and don’t have to live in fear that she is watching me every time I went to the store or mall even thought I had completely cut her out of my life. The woman that used to love me and care for me died a long long time ago and I accepted that fact long before her actual death. She stole my money to buy bottles of wine to fuel her drinking habit and actually used it right in front of me and never let me have any spending money. I only managed to escape from her after she had attacked me over money my mom sent me for Christmas because her foot was broken and she couldn’t chase after me and also I screamed for help so loudly when she grabbed my coat as I ran out her door that it scared her because she worked with other autistic kids as an aide in a specialized school.