What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Pola]

Meds make it less awful, but pure pain. Memories from the past 20 years that I suppressed are coming back all at once. It hurts oh so bad, but I have to feel it and process.

 

[FFnerd]

Better than earlier. Still a bit low energy and sad - not quite numb though - just a little raw and sleepy.

 

[FFnerd]

Excited for my new card games, but anxious about my schedule tomorrow.

 

[Paladin_141]

Slightly pissednoff , because some.guy in a bar overheard me mention one of the places I served and decided to try to gotcha me. Presumably he has told a lot of people that he served there, too.
He insisted that the fact that I served witha mechanised brigade means I was an engineer. Not a mistake a real soldier would make.
The friend he was with turned out to have served with the same specialist armed police unit as me, but at a different time, and remembers my former partner well.

I shouldn't give a f*ck, but I do.

On the other hand, a Latvian girl was more than happy to have my number.

 

[NicoleRoxanne]

I feel numb
I feel useless
I feel tired
I feel hopeful
I feel sad
I feel angry
I feel enraged
I feel alone
I feel like I want revenge
I feel dumbfounded at the way my own family have left me alone to suffer after being a part of the origional cause of my first traumas

 

[Dynamic]

Outrageous :(

 

[In the weeds]

Angry. So, so angry.

 

[RVA21]

Depressed
Angry

 

[Teasel]

Sitting with you @RVA21

 

[RVA21]

Thanks @Teasel much appreciated

 

[ms spock]

Calm, anxious, present, torn a bit, settling down.

 

[Paladin_141]

The pub I'm in appears to be playing a playlist specifically designed to f*ck with me, so...EVERYTHING

The last four songs have been Rock the Casbah (reminds me of an old mentor who served in Op Granby), Fortunate Son (yeah, just...yeah...), Comfortably Numb (reminds me of my time training for our equivalentof SWAT and the beautiful, redheaded lunatic I met there) and Like A Rolling Stone (reminds me of my time assisting the Navy SEALS in the Med).

Holy shit, a lot of my friends and lovers are dead.

Why do I always have to be left behind to deal with it, man? Seems unfair.